Dusk after the Easter

My 30 is coming the next week. I feel empty and desensitised. I listen to old songs from my 2009-2012 era, when life started feeling angstily different. Oh boi(!), how wrongly I imagined my adulthood. I hoped I'd have overcome my indifference towards romantics, find a gf and start a family 'like all people'. This refrain keeps boggling my mind. Who are those 'all people'? And though the world is…