toward the end

What a drab year it has been. I went on two lovely vacations but aside from that, it feels like I've just been surviving. A sizable portion of the drab-ness seems fairly attributable to the overall political, social, and economic mood of the times. Still, I have a nagging suspicion that a not insignificant part is also contained within myself—my attitudes about what I want to do and how I want to…