- how unlikely it was that id be here, eating empanades, looking at the scenery and thinking about how i miss yerevan and f. I feel anger, envy, sadness, uslessness and my self-confidence is reaching the absolute low. I feel like I don't deserve things, I feel like things I deserve are not supposed to be deserved??? I feel like every choice I made in my late 20s was wrong. I feel like I need to…