You can try harder (CW)

Content warning: on depression. No, I really can’t. In the last few years I have learned that the way to keep myself away from suicidal ideation is through resource management. My insomnia persists. Last night I slept in two 2-hour chunks. I woke up each time lethargic and angry at the unchanged state of my physical and mental health. On a good day I can shower, on an excellent day where I…