Circumstances? Capability? Desire?

Is it that the job is hard, that I can’t do it, or that I don’t want it now that I have it? Those the are the questions that have been plaguing my mind for the past month in the run up to my end of year review, which took place this week. I have had in my sights, since 2013 when I joined the Civil Service, that I wanted to be a senior civil servant. I was told back then, and I believed it, that I…