When you've experienced a traumatic birth

I gave birth six days ago to my son Neil. I dreamt about him for 10 months. I prayed over him in my womb daily. I am so in love with him I can’t even find the words (and I’m a writer.) I celebrate Neil separate from my birth. Because my birth was a traumatic one and I want thoughts of him to be unconnected from that. But this is my birth story. I’m sharing this just in hopes that it helps any…