man. just. fuckin. I need help. I’m not gonna get it though. cause I’m cheap as fuck and I’m not…

man. just. fuckin. I need help. I'm not gonna get it though. cause I'm cheap as fuck and I'm not ready for it. or whatever. wouldn't accept it if it meant changing my life in any meaningful way. I'm telling you being miserable is the only way I'm happy idk how else to operate. we're all just gonna have to get through this. it's fuckin awful that there's apparently 300 of you watching me want to…