Is My Life a Mess?

I keep feeling like my life is a big mess. I am going nowhere with my career. I am obese. I am lazy. All I do is get more stuff in hopes of those stuff filling in the void. Why do I have so much STUFF? I feel like I am living a lie. Everyday is a balance of trying to let myself be me, be comfortable, be better, be perfect, be good, be free, be okay. I kept wanting to do other things (wanting is…