good professors are wasted on me

In an academic setting, I function better as an autodidact than as a student. I don't think this is fault of my professors. Though, at the same time, I don't believe it's my fault either. There's a strange conundrum where I wish for mentorship, but cannot seem to find a style or medium of education that quite does it for me. It requires experimentation, but academic settings don't want to…