It is easy to believe in something you were thought to believe

My depression is going hard and steady and no light seems to show up anytime soon, I need like a cave man learn to ignite my own fire. Like a fucking cave man I need to deal with things by myself as I try my best not to lose hope but I already did, I try with no reason, even now - as I am looking at this current job and my current life I think to myself 'Perhaps it's all a mistake to begin with'…