Been a month - nothing changes

Interestingly when I am looking back to how things were emotionally a month ago, comparing it to the present I have come into the conclusion that all the time I invested, all this time I suffered - not worth the end result. I don't know if it's because it's not the end of the journey, beats me. I had enough of this bs. I try so hard to work, to be consistent but it's so hard to continue doing…