I Boast In My Sufferings

Just had a 2 hour meeting with my campus’ College Republicans president , a nice kid with a rainbow shirt on. A few things :

1) Democrat alt-Leftist Fascists on campus are highly organized, violent , and are not held accountable by law enforcement in this town, or on this campus . Self defense is difficult because arms are prohibited by the same party. He was at Berkeley and described the situation thusly : we had to hold the square or it was over . There was no law for 3 hours—none. Criminal assault with a deadly weapon happened hundreds of times and they were not allowed to defend themselves . Criminal arson (but I repeat myself), criminal battery, criminal vandalism (again, I repeat myself), theft, etc., as well as numerous civil rights violations occurred without any account. Merely having a Republican professor dialogue can trigger this organized, inane, dumb criminal response , and the University will let it happen because they are the same political party as the alt-Left fascists.

2) Many many people on campus want more safe (genuinely) dialogue and want to have more clarity in many issues of the day. There is much room for growth if the criminal Left (but I repeat myself) are held at bay.

3) These kids need guidance badly. They are doing the best they can but they are right now discriminated against systematically. They need a faculty advisor for even a room for weekly meetings. They didn’t have one until I said yes. (Our first meeting was 6 months ago). They still do not have approval for a room. The college Democrats have the support of the faculty, administration, law enforcement, and the majority of students who are Dem by non rational osmosis.

I finally said , the College Republicans will be meeting in my office. You now have a room. I will find the chairs from other offices . To do this, I have to not tell my colleagues .

I spend 2 hours just in guidance —what is good , bad, worthwhile, true, false, etc. But I go out on a limb to do this.

The university is one of the most Satanic places in America , colleges and universities. My vision is to break that in 2, then in 3. Generally speaking , those ambivalent are really on the side of the Democrats, the status quo. In the present crisis in education , there is no neutral ground.

I recently looked up my supervisor on FB. First time i’ve done that. It was one anti-Republican rant after another . This person is a six figure bureaucrat who can’t lose the job, who decides winners and losers in terms of part-time faculty like myself. It is a very tenuous situation, as usual. But just as I did at LMU , I just cannot stay silent . I’m thinking about posting my letter of application to LMU here in FB so you can see some of the stuff I documented for the philosophy dept in my letter of application —where I narrated what it was like to work at that university as a Republican professor and for the students .

I didn’t get invited back for the fall for the first time in 12 years. This despite the fact that I’ve only become a better professor , not worse. This despite the fact that I’ve slowly began giving students the grades they really earned. In other words , I started to ignore the institutional pressure to inflate grades. Well, it’s never been more apparent to me just how much I was right —they didn’t invite me back.

The corruption on campus is so bad, I have to believe the stench of it reaches Heaven. I want to be on tha right side of this, not the convenient side. I wish they were the same side . I hope sometime in my career I could enjoy a few years of that.

But right now, I have to tell you: I do what a i do at great risk. I am very vulnerable . I don’t have a home in California. We rent . I don’t see ownership —something my parents took for granted to a certain extent —possible in So Cal. We have spent enormous time and energy and resources preparing for our roles here. I hope it gets better. But I do this with no expectations that it will get better. I do it out of duty to God and country. We are in the thick of it here. It is relentless pressure. With no rainbow for us in sight.

The Lord cares for us and has met our needs in the past . I hope he continues to do so in the future . I just point this out because so many have an unclear, if not false view , of our situation . I’m only asking for continued prayer and to explain why I ask for it. And I really appreciate it.

I can’t tell you how humbling it is to receive it and to see someone like myself walk into the fire, day after day, in this inferno, and come out unscathed . As I read Paul in 2nd Corinthians, the things he describes—the fear , the challenges —I feel weekly and have for years. Years. I only say this so you have a fuller picture of what life is like here in California for an Adjunct Professor who is Republican. My humor is a coping mechanism . My wrath is righteous. My use of FB is to historically and philosophicallly document my life here as I see things on campus and in our culture.

If I boast in my sufferings , I have a great example to follow. And so I do. It’s not to be histrionic. It’s not to be a drama queen . Or king . It’s to be historical . I don’t want this moment or time of my life to float away unaccounted for. And to me, this is dramatic because history tends to be so.

Hopefully it’s beneficial to you some how, some way.

Grace and peace be unto you today.

~Ljm

Originally published to FB on Sat. 14 Oct. 2017 at 5:40pm