Collecting moments, feelings, and little daydreams along the way. Writing has always been my quiet refuge. A space where my wildest imaginations are free...
Yesterday felt like one of those days where everything was just...off. Nothing seemed to go my way, and I was incredibly annoyed. Honestly, constantly blaming myself is exhausting too, and the last thing I wanted was to be alone in my room, lying in bed and replaying everything in my head (￣︿￣) When I got home, I tried to calm myself down by repeating, It's okay. It's just a bad day, not a bad…
Apparently, emotional freedom is a thing. Not in the I have transcended human existence and now float above attachment and suffering kind of way. More like, I still feel everything... I just don't let it drive the car anymore ... which is inconvenient. Because it turns out no one is actually free. Not the confident ones, not the successful ones, not the ones who look like they've figured it out on…
One day, a friend asked me, what is hope? At first, I thought hope was simply faith. The quiet decision to keep going, even when the road is rough and the destination is unclear 🦋🌸☁️ But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that hope can be two things at once. Hope can be a destination, which something we long for, dream about, or strive toward. And hope is also the belief that the…
Who gave us permission to stop dreaming? I have been thinking about that question a lot lately. Was it the moment someone told us to be realistic? The moment we failed at something we loved? The moment we were told to know our place, know our limits, or simply be grateful for what we already had? I don't know. What do I know is that somewhere along the way, many of us stopped believing that bigger…
A few days ago, my mother was telling me about my nieces, the little cute Rara and Rere, who are about to start kindergarten. Because their parents have different financial circumstances, they may end up attending different schools. Rere wants to go to the same school as Rara. It makes sense, they are just two days apart in age, and children naturally assume that life will unfold side by side.…
One day, I called my mom, and out of nowhere she brought up a story I had completely forgotten. Apparently, when I was in third grade, our class had one of those introduce yourself assignments. One of the questions was simple: what is your father's occupation? according to my mom, my answer was "my dad's job is sleeping." (´｡• ᵕ •｡`) The teacher became concerned enough to call my parents. And my…
✿°•∘ɷ🩰☕️🪞∘•°✿ Recently, I came across a discussion about Pilates pricing and qualifications that made me think deeper about how people view quality, accessibility, and status. Someone was talking about how pilates class should be taught by highly experienced instructors, how classes should cost a certain amount, and how very cheap classes can be dangerous or questionable . The concern itself is…
One day, I went to a bar with a friend. She’s a regular there, and the reason we went is because one of the bartenders was having his last shift before moving somewhere else. So she wanted to say goodbye properly. When she called the bar, they said they were currently full and encouraged us to walk in instead. Right when we arrived, we still had to wait downstairs. The security guard told us we…
I listened to the Indonesian president’s speech on 20 May 2026 for almost one and a half hours. The longer I listened, the more conflicted I became. ┻━┻ ︵ヽ(`Д´)ﾉ︵ ┻━┻ There were numbers. Growth targets. Nationalism. Food security. Promises. But somewhere between the speeches about sovereignty and prosperity, I kept asking myself: Why does Indonesia keep repeating the same pattern? We say we want…
People like to assume. Everybody does. A lack of love creates its own bubble, where assumptions live rent free. ¯_(ツ)/¯ So when someone gives a genuine compliment, some people feel attacked instead. Society has shaped many of us this way, and in some ways, we’re all victims of it. But as humans, we evolve. We can shape our own thinking despite what others say or project onto us. (⊃｡•́‿•̀｡)⊃…