lots of things happened in the past 3 months. the highlight of those events wasn’t even a good one: i got scammed back on may. not only it drained my savings balance, it also drained my mental health for a whole month. ever since the scamming incident and took care of some legal stuff back […]
as someone who spent her youth hating herself, trying to describe my 3 qualities at a fun outdoor ice breaker activities in front of people feels like a public humiliation. i could feel the imaginary gun pointing at my forehead. i used to think that self-love was a narcisstic thing. but the older i get, […]
i kinda feel guilty not planning what i want to write for my blog at the moment because i’ve been journaling on physical journal book more. aside that it lets my eyes to rest from staring at computer screen, it prevents me from oversharing to strangers as well (lol). i am an overthinker person and […]
every new year, i always set my expectation low because i hate constantly being disappointed, especially since the past 5-6 years because it feels like things going downhill ever since 2020. but thinking about it will only make me go spiral and i hate the feeling so much, so i won’t talk about it further. […]
it’s been a week! there are a lot of things happening but i’ll write down the highlights of them!
2 days before that, i had a painful headache caused by either sun heatwave, side effect of my monthly period, or the strong smell of anti-insect toilet balls, or all three of those, it was hell. i was sweating all day and tried to rest by sleeping all day in an air-conditioned room. i woke […]
in the past months (maybe since october, i’m not sure), i had dreams about on a road trip several times, more than i usually have. it’s not the relaxing kind of dream, at least what i feel when i remember it. those dreams about road trip made me feel uneasy, but i can’t call it […]
my home wi-fi have been losing its connection since yesterday. turning off the router and restarting and repeat but still doesn’t solve the problem. i decided that maybe i need the customer care’s repairman’s help. could be caused by recent rainstorms or neighbor’s cat stepped on the cable outside, i dunno. i can’t waste my […]
i have missed my monthly appointment schedule with my therapist because i’ve been feeling unwell in the past two days. as much as i love rainy weather, rainy season have started to affect my health, it seems… (𖦹﹏𖦹;) the night before yesterday i felt nauseous so i went to sleep earlier. then the next morning […]
today i went outside for my daily morning walk, but there was something different that morning: the fog was thicker than usual. it was a kind of fog that commonly seen at the mountain area (my place is not a mountain area). it felt nice and calming to walk through it. i can’t imagine how […]