a twenty something from aus. i made this website to have *something* remotely representative of me on the internet. i make music, write pretentiously and generally struggle to have a cohesive sense of self while being crippled with nostalgia (often for things i never even experienced). i'm also into fighting games, rpgs, anime, photography, audio technology, fashion and sociology, especially in the digital form.
it’s 2315 on a sunday night. you're just winding down for the night. you have work at 8, and you're already in relatively insignificant but prolonged sleep debt. you're doing your nails after an evening of linux, laundry, sudoku and testing out a new mouse you bought. you're impressed with how this whole vyvanse thing has worked out. you've said to multiple people that you've run out of stuff to…
our eyes catch from across the bar. you’re wearing what you usually do on a saturday night, whatever that is. i’m wearing a dark green (#03350) cheap polyester suit with a clearly unironed shirt, my tie is nice though; a herringbone burgundy (#660033). tied decently enough. i pull out a cigarette case, slyly gesture you to come outside to join me. against better judgement, you do so. it’s raining.…
i come to you in this summer heat feeling like a little slug on a hotplate, my skirt gently sizzling, my pneumostrome clogged with olive oil, god watching over me, keen to saute me into a meal with eggs or something. the analogy is running out of steam. but generally, i struggle with heat like no one else. so, in my delirium, allow this little gastropod to recount how he’s been getting slimy with…
TLDR BECAUSE I GO AUTISTIC IN THIS BITCH Buy a psp 3000, a 1000 if you don't really care that much, a street if you hate yourself or a go if you have a growth deficiency and lack taste. Buy a psp battery (official or ostent brand preferred) By a psp memory card or SD card adaptor Buy a psp charger Jump here So! You want a psp. This is a definitive guide to all you need. Sourcing materials, custom…
How can I tell what model I have? On the bottom of your PSP should be a barcode that ends in PSPxxxx. The basic model is the closest thousand (eg 3002 is a 3000 model). The last number in those 4 digits is the specific revision, which usually boils down to minor build differences for internal components. Help! I can't connect my PSP to my wifi! By modding your PSP it should be compatible with…
aight gentlemen, time for the q4 business report. apologies in the late submission, i’ve been making major money moves, and, well, life sometimes gets quite busy without one noticing. missed you all terribly, and truth be told, i worried this blog would be one of the projects i take up for a few months before i quietly forget about it, silently vowing to make another entry. never doing so. but…
on one hand: dude was an absolute grifter shill who advocated for atrocities and everything i stand against. enabled the culture that led to his demise. i can get behind political violence when it is a fight or die conflict. the slaves did not negotiate their way out of servitude. on another - children won't see their father again. wife won't hold her husband. immeasurably fucked. i don't agree…
hey! it’s been a while. sorry. have a seat! i made you some tea. hold on, let me move some stuff and… there. how have you been? have you been well? have you been going through a series of metamorphoses? have you been the person your younger self needed? are you being kind to yourself? are you aware it’s not too late to make this life everything you wish it could be? hmm. yes yes. damn. sounds like…
an aside about disability and capitalism that i can’t exactly put into its own post due to being too short, but too long for updates. i have this working theory about disability. humor me. understand i’m not calling neurodiversity a disability, they’re both umbrella terms to me, just that these two terms have some parallel interactions with what i’m about to grace. capitalism requires an…
hi. i'm nick. i'm in my mid twenties. my pronouns are he/they. i like music, fighting games, audio technology in general, and i'm very politically left. i am also autistic. and sometimes i hate that. now i'm going to talk about that, but if this is your first exposure to me as a person or even just the first time you're engaging with this blog, this may not be the post for you. i’m about to come…
hi british vogue, i’m nick, and this is what’s in my bag water bottle a yeti bottle specifically. get one. they keep things cold for like 12 hours. basically everyone in the hottest parts of australia have them. i staved off the urge for a while, i’ve been awfully at keeping hydrated, bragged about it even, but at the start of the year i made a resolution to make small changes to my lifestyle to…
another blog post. let’s get cracking chaps. work stuff!!! new job has been good! it’s at a diy electronics store. or more aptly, it’s like a more nerdy jb hi fi (radioshack for all the americans that shall hypothetically tune in when i release a song that blows up on tiktok). it’s been odd. i feel like most of the jobs i’ve taken up until now haven’t been a good fit for my brain. i mostly worked…
well shit!! here we are. personal rambling time. yes bestie. lemme just jump into it, ripping off my friend uuupah. i'm sure they wont mind. i got diagnosed, bros it is official. i have adhd. this is something i've suspected for a while, but really came to a head in my last relationship. as someone with adhd, they delighted in pointing out all the little symptoms. the assessment was fuckin scary.…
this is all heavy subject matter, so imagine if you will, university. i'm sure it's a fond place for many of you. a simpler time one might say. i personally went to adelaide uni (to study music specifically). between involving myself in more clubs than is advisable, buying cheap asian food from a takeaway place that no longer exists, burying myself in the library to study for hours on end or…
a bit of pretext to this blog. you might read this and think i’m a spineless coward. fair. instead of thinking this is how you should approach everyone, think of this as how to approach those you can tell are politically disengaged, maybe those already learning left but with some caveats, or those you can identify as single-issue voters. undeniably, there are those who cannot and should not appeal…
i have an outstandingly long google doc i use as a journal. here's some vaguely hopecore messages from that to lead you into 2025 wether you want time to move forward or not. find all the quotations from media and i shall personally award you nothing i'm breathing --- fuck em up, or go down trying. --- always, i'll care --- this anger is a cycle, and I have the power to stop --- if love is the…
nick's tips for all creatives everywhere differentiate meaningful opportunities with toil. there's a lot of things that look like opportunity that are worthless and vice versa. usually you can tell them apart by how manic the personal at the helm is. the more grounded the better the opportunity. what was beneficial can turn to toil, that's okay, it's time move on. you cannot do everything. the…
favourite listenables frank ocean - blonde/endless hard to pick between these two. blonde is undeniably the more rounded product with more polished recordings and mixing, emotional complexity and diversity sonically, endless however acts as more interesting listen, which unpolished nature doesn’t detract from the atmospheric nature of the contents. eden - icymi holy fuck. this album is everything…
so. the voice. man. what the fuck could one start. if i were to break down the demographic of the 'no' vote, i'd say 1/3 were genuine, no bars held, no shame racists. people who genuinely just didn't want indigenous people to have rights. i don't have anything super profound to add to this statement. fucking white people man. homie at work once said he has a hatred for about 70% of the white race…
a series of short thoughts recently. i think the mobile games have caught onto the fact that neurodivergent people exist and have put all their fucking chips on making genuinely addictive games littered with ads as an infinite money glitch. yeah, mobile games have always been a dumpster fire of quick-fix dopamine but the amount of games that fit that 'oddly satisfying' subgenre have skyrocketed…
(content warning: the mental image of a man's ass) as some of you might know, i got my ears pierced recently. i wanted to talk about that. my partner lily got her thirds done a few months ago after getting a gift voucher for skinkandy, and while i was in there the thought hit me. "i always kinda wanted to get me ears pierced, why don't i???" it was the same reasoning for my first tattoo (i have 2…