The dumbest thing I ever did

Up until this past election there was something I spent my life doing while keeping it hidden.

I had been helping and protecting as many people as I could for my entire adult life no matter who they were. I didn’t need to know them or even meet them but I still did everything I could to help them at every chance I got.

In my 20’s and 30’s I had a fake reputation that I nurtured where I was very well known for being mean and getting into a lot of fists fights. I did get into fist fights but I never said why. I never said anything. I let people believe the rumors to build that reputation.

Even though everyone believed that about me, everyone knew who to come to when there was any trouble.

I used to go out of my way and ask people that I helped not to tell anyone I did it. I wanted to protect my bad boy reputation. It was stupid to have always hidden the real me. Everyone had still loved me but they also feared me at the same time.

I would have been happy to take my secret to the grave having no one ever know what I have been doing but the time is now for people to see the real me. People need to know that people are out here that will fight to protect them. Their need is greater than my need to hide what I have always done.

I don’t like being praised for helping people. For some strange reason it makes me uncomfortable. All I want is to be able to continue helping people however I can. Doors have always opened for me when I needed a new direction. I never know what will be on the other side but I always go through and find the purpose.

After the election I could feel the pain of so many people because I am an empath. I knew I needed to do something. Within days I signed up on Bluesky with no intention of what I would do. I had never used twitter so I knew nothing about how that stuff worked and no one knew me.

Within 2 days of joining I found my purpose and I started building the mod lists. Now after 3 months I have 25k followers and an army of people to help me help everyone. That is how everything in my life has always worked. Like magic. Instant success.

I have angered a lot of bad people and I knew I would. I accepted the risks up front and I have no fear because I am truly blessed and protected. Not just with my level of intelligence but with the spirit I have within me that lives through my actions.

I will do my best to help as many people as I can. To protect as many as I can. To lead if I must. Whatever it takes, I will do it. This is my purpose in life. It always has been and it always will be. There are angels that walk the Earth with one purpose. People that will gladly sacrifice themselves in order to save you. I know this to be true because I have always been one of those people. The first person standing to protect you when there is trouble no matter who you are, where it is or what it is. Look for the person that does that and you have found an angel. Now everyone is going to be looking to spot them. :)

Telling people about my longest held secret hasn’t been easy but it is getting easier. I need people to know that they can turn to me. If I am able to help, I will help. I care about people. Use my knowledge, my strength, my spirit, my direction. Whatever part of me that you need to help you is here for you. This purpose is why I am so blessed. It’s not for me, it’s for you.