where i'll ramble like no tomorrow, and hope to connect with others thru it <3 26yrs/USA/femme/lowkey who needs labels tho, i guess just to help us feel les...
i would like to have more depth for sure ! dedicate more time to my arts and discovering things about myself . i don't know why the past few weekends i've just had that itch to be out and about with friends though . itch never did get fully scratched either smh (this weekend tho ??👀LOL) ..maybe it's because of the cruise vibes, i feel like i wasn't having that itch until we came back lol .…
when the person you love makes something, makes art, do you love it because it's good art that speaks to you, or do you love it because the person you love made it ? i used to think my love would be a fan of my art and creativity forever-er, at least for a long time lol . but over time it seemed like his interest in my art was fading . and i remember he said he felt like he wasn't the target…
im gunna look attractive to someone and someone else might say i need to eat more . someone else might tell me im skinny goals n someone else might say i'm too flat . a person could see me as the new 'ballet model', slim figure, another person could ignore me jus bc i dont have enough cushion . what would i feel the most comfortable in, on a planet that fluctuates what the beauty standard is every…
i need to look back at my daily journal later, but to my knowledge n memory, i haven't had any intense emotional breakdown over life sinceeeee january !!! ;v; oh my goodness, like past me would not believe it to be so, even tho waaay past me experienced emotional stability before . it is a little thing but i am so proud of myself ! >v could it be bc of my new routine ? i think so~ i'm taking care…
i wish more ppl paid attention to the way the planets are moving as much as they check the weather, bc it can affect you !! it’s probably affecting you right now especially if you’ve started a new thing/new relationship, had intense arguments or feelings of anger over the past few weeks, huge realizations, WAR ..WE ARE GOING THRU A WAR RN, multiple but the shit in Iran has escalated quickly for…
i feel like a party pooper bc i’m at the salon, they was watching something called trapping anonymous on youtube . the woman they had on there to interview was 31, and when she was 12 she was raped by her cousin and his friend and ended up pregnant, didn’t find out until 7 months in that she was having a baby so couldn’t abort . heavy intense traumatic topic-and i in no way want to say that it…
man i was madddd depressing on here before, like probably could count the number of happy/funny posts on one maybe both hands lmaoooo lemme stop making fun of past me, she was doing the best she could off no sleep no food and no workout routine LOL ;v; why did i let it get that bad WAAAHHH ANYWAY . not what i was here for . i can comment on my past on a later post frfr . wanted to save this for my…
i woke up on time, went to the gym, had a fantastic workout (wonder if i should go a little high every sesh, but idk lolol), sat in my car and looked at my messages . i saw the guy i love texted earlier-didn’t realize it was around 3am . i wonder if an eyelash was keeping him awake, or if he was stressed about his cousin, or if it was too hot in his place, or something else . the text tho .. i am…
i'm not doing ok, not doing ok at all right at this moment . the cool thing about moments is that they can change so quickly, and before you know it, you end up feeling so far removed from that last moment . and i'm just waiting for it to feel that way for me, for the moment to be far away from me . but right now i'm still inside it . getting off from a long day at work . missing someone . wishing…
another personal thing, so if you know me irl read with discretion or whatever 😪 no better than his mom, being controlling with when and how he replies to me . when i realized that, i was so embarrassed, so full of shame . i never would want to guilt trip or make him feel like how his mom does about little things . but here i was, doing just that, getting upset over him not saying stuff to me,…