The Hardest Thing To Escape Is Yourself

I spent years outrunning a life that existed within me.

My physical escape meant nothing because the internal war waged on.

Running away from life itself won’t solve your problems.

Killing your old identity and your fears is what will release you.

I spent too much time imagining various scenarios that would never happen. I was chasing distractions to feel “free” and I would always wonder why nothing changed, why I wasn’t living the life that I wanted to live.

I chose comfort over struggle because comfort felt safer.

Everyday felt the same, my happiness would only exist in short bursts.

The rest of the time was spent living in regret and distracting myself with cheap dopamine.

I wanted to change, but I was too loyal to a life I didn’t want.

It wasn’t until I realised that I can change my life by simply altering my energy and the way I think.

Why is it that people wish that they were someone else?

Why do we wish that things were different?

What you let in affects your actions.

Once I shifted my focus onto things that I truly wanted, I was able to see the change before my eyes.

My writing took off, more people were reading what I had to say.

I felt an opening was finally presenting itself to me.

I have taken pictures of the comments that remind me to carry on what I am doing. Something that money cannot buy.

As a result, my system changed, my habits altered.

I started living, enjoying the journey itself.

I stopped running and started dancing.

My brief spell away taught me that the mind attracts what you truly want - an accumulation of thoughts and actions over days and weeks come to fruition.

Finally I was drawn to things that made me frustrated when I was engaging with them.

Thoughts only ever remain as thoughts if they’re not followed up by action.

Hobbies or activities you’ve always wanted to do.

The girl you want to approach.

Whatever it is, think less and act more.

Whenever I would engage in one of the listed instances, I would always wonder what I should do and what I should say, and this was killing me before I had done anything.

Just sitting here in the coffee shop has got my stomach going all over the place, experiencing once again the things I finally acted upon and the things that get me excited

I never would of thought that my writing would take off.

Just that one moment of bringing my thoughts to life, hitting publish and people liking what I produced gave me something that living in my head never would.

People are afraid of failure and rejection just as much as they are death.

You can change your consciousness whenever you choose.

The longer you wait to change, the less likely you are to be the new you.

I quit the job.

I spoke to people to improve my interactions and to give them a sense of joy.

I remained consistent with my publishing.

I was finally doing things that aligned with the life I wanted to live.

Life isn’t something to avoid, but it is something for you to explore and to be present with.

I used to run away from my thoughts.

I was only existing.

The more you try to run away from life, the less excitement you have.

I stopped running away from the life I wanted.

And the moment I stopped running was when I finally found something to dance towards.

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