I See People Losing Their Minds All Around Me

Have you ever found yourself speechless and in awe at how many people are committed to insanity, irrationality, and flat-out schizoid paranoia, with a total dismissal of situational awareness as well as footing in reality? Can you recall recent instances when you received reactions from people that were totally out of proportion, off-topic, and outside sane, logical reality, as if they had completely mistranslated and deliberately misunderstood your message? The frequency of such instances of total insanity is alarming, and it makes one wonder whether the human species is fundamentally flawed from the design table. No wonder there can be no true communication, understanding, or empathy in this reality.

Because I use psychiatric terminology in this article, let me explain how I’ll be using them, and where I stand on the whole psychiatry shtick.

Multiple personality disorder, bipolar disorder, narcissistic personality disorder, schizophrenia… All these are vague, overlapping terms, with no objective, quantifiable, and accurately measurable criteria by which a scientifically valid or accurate diagnosis can be made. This is why psychiatry is not a science.

Let me state this again, right in the face of all the mindless, toilet-paper degree holders with their deluded god-complex and their insulting gall to claim otherwise: Psychiatry is not a science; it’s snake oil at best. And I should know; I hold a few toilet-paper science degrees myself.

Street-drug dealers help people with mental disease much more effectively than monstrous drug-dealing psychiatrists, recklessly prescribing hazardous pharmaceuticals whose side effects are worse than the disease. When a listed side effect of antidepressants is depression, you know you’re being mocked. No, I don’t recognise psychiatry as a science. It isn’t. Not even close. I should know, because I use real science daily for work: numbers, statistics, and, more importantly, discerning the logically accurate meaning of numbers, and recognising false attribution and bad science. And believe me, the world is knee-deep in bad science, which explains why mental disease is the default for humanity.

Anyone who still insists that psychiatry is somehow a science has abandoned reason and has no intellectual capacity (let alone honesty) to comprehend or define true science. Psychology is different: it doesn’t claim to be a science, and it has the potential to actually help people, when done right, at least for a while.

But snake oil salesmen selling dope and playing trial and error with random, hazardous pharmaceuticals while measuring loose approximations to arbitrary, meaningless, and generic metrics… that’s psychiatry. Fuck off, dangerous parasites, psychiatrists. You’re on the wrong side of the padded cell door.

Sorry for sidetracking; I had to get that off my chest.

Despite the scam of psychiatry, we can still use “psychiatric terms” like schizophrenia, not as objective diagnoses, but as observable phenomena. This is how I use them in this article, and this whole section was for defining my use of terms.

You don’t need a medical degree to be able to observe and identify irrationality, insanity, and schizoid personality disorders, just like you don’t need to be a doctor to observe an impalement, an amputation, or someone in need of CPR.

The distinction between dispassionate commitment to reason and the unhinged attachment to insanity is clear, and it doesn’t require six years of parasitical academic-partying lifestyle to observe insanity.

Last year, I finally admitted to myself that my older brother was, in fact, properly insane, with severe symptoms of schizoid personality: randomly switching from one distinct persona to the next, abruptly, without warning, without logical continuity. One of the fakest people I’ve ever known, who wears a mask of “likeability” in public, an obsessive conformist, a hopelessly insecure narcissist who sells out any principle if it means short-sighted, utilitarian gain. Someone so immensely volatile, reactive, and unhinged when faced with his inadequacies that he isn’t even aware of which persona, which mask he’s wearing, and which false self is behind the wheel at any given moment. An individual who goes, within a split second, from a performative, overacted ‘laid-back’ demeanour and the condescending, Dwayne-Johnson-style “I’m nice to you even though I don’t have to ‘cause I’m better than you” attitude, to an estrogen-fuelled, maniacal hissy fit. An unaccountable blamer, a gaslighting, compulsive liar who thinks that any lie is justified as long as it serves his ends. Yet he is sane enough to control himself when faced with people he is truly afraid of, people whose approval he desperately needs.

Emotional volatility betrays severe unresolved trauma, especially when the veneer of narcissism (this masked insecurity) renders one blind to their inadequacies, thus making them incapable of improving. If you keep sweeping under the rug, you’ll never be able to clean your house, because the unclean is hidden.

And you know that when that emotional instability occurs, it has nothing to do with the objective reality around the afflicted. The insanely unhinged reaction is unnatural and disproportionate to the stimulus. Instead, it’s the psycho-demons inside grasping at straws, desperately looking for any excuse to come out and reign, just for a bit.

This is what demonic possession really is: being taken over by your demons, the false personas you manufactured to overcompensate for your insecurities, but who instead end up hijacking your will and making you their bitch. This is not an excuse; this is an explanation.

When your soul, body, and mind become vessels to be hijacked by entities you made up to overcompensate for your fears, inadequacies, shame, and insecurities, then you are no longer you; you’ve delivered your self-ownership to your demons, sold your soul to a devil you made up who promises to save you, but instead, makes it all worse for you. This is the essence of the Faustian gamble: risking your all and losing because to gain something, you had to betray your values and principles.

When you deny yourself long enough, you go insane.

Compromising your integrity is how you lose your mind. Your integrity is the shell protecting and granting form to your soul, your true self. And that shell is made up of your core values, principles, virtues, ideals, and ideas, the things that give shape and define you, that represent you, and that you represent in return. If you compromise them, you lose your armour, what protects you and what gives you spiritual and intellectual form. You, quite literally, become formless, and therefore, identity-less.

It’s not selfish to nurture your individual self-sovereignty. Surrendering to collectivist group-think whereby the group defines the individuals (and not the other way around, as it should be) is a surrender of dignity, which leads to compromised integrity. Then you pretend to wonder why you lack self-esteem when you apparently “have it all”. The question is how much of your dignity you had to sacrifice for it.

When you are tormented by feelings of ‘not knowing who you are’, it’s because you’ve compromised your integrity for far too long. You’ve pretended to be someone else, and failed to live up to your core values and principles, thus denying and dishonouring your true inclinations and predispositions. This way, if you deny the things that make you who you are deep down, you lose yourself. It’s spiritual suicide.

My brother claims to be very right-wing and has all the worst things to say about leftists and how damaging they are to society; that every evil comes from the left, in his own words. Yet, his two closest friends are hardcore communists and party members, with preferential government positions: rewards for their subservience. When I heard someone confront him about this disconnect, he condescendingly said: “Well, I respect people’s different opinions and beliefs, and friendship doesn’t have to get political.”

Really? Doesn’t it?

Your beliefs, opinions, and affiliations are the manifestation of your core principles. Of course they matter when it comes to choosing the people closest to you. You are being hypocritical, not tolerant, when you allow yourself to connect and emotionally invest with people who hold opposing core principles to yours.

Sure, you can be civil with people of different opinions, but how close a connection can you form with people whose core beliefs are antithetical to yours? If you’re honest with yourself and committed to your principles, you cannot build meaningful relationships with people who share opposing core values. It would be an ethical compromise to do so. If you’re a Christian and you marry an atheist, you betray your principles, because your core belief assumes your partner will, by default, go to hell, and you don’t seem to care. If you’re a communist and you’re best friends with business-owning “capitalists” (the scapegoat of socialism), then you’re hypocritical because you can’t be consistent in what you presume to believe; you can’t be friends with the people your ideology treats as the source of all evil. If you’re pro-freedom, you can’t be close friends with a nazi or a socialist (same thing, different branding).

Thus, pretending, lying, and compromising your convictions just to be accepted and gain generic approval means you don’t really stand up for the thing you claim you stand for.

Sure, you can have different tastes in music, food, cinema… That’s fine, because there are no core, self-defining values. You don’t have to believe in the exact same things. But your core beliefs, your fundamental principles and values that define and drive you, and give you purpose and meaning in life, cannot be too different from the people you choose to keep around you, and by extension, influence you.

Because this is how it goes: your entourage matters. Your environment molds you continuously. Therefore, your choice of people, those you allow to access you and thus influence you (whether you like it or not), matters.

My brother sold out to the freemason suckups just to get ahead at the expense of others. This is how inner circles work, and I wonder what he gave them on him to achieve the “trust” of mutually assured destruction; the only way you can get inner circles to accept you. This is why all these inner circles are obsessed with high-class rave parties, drugs, prostitutes, and all kinds of debauchery; humiliation ceremonies to “get you in”, like university fraternities’ “pledges”.

Are you willing to sacrifice your integrity? This is how you gain the trust of inner circles. You literally sell your soul (your dignity and integrity) to the devil in exchange for meaningless, superficial gain.

Now he spends all his working hours with leftists and gay activists, wearing his mask of hypocrisy, since he claims to be very anti-gay and anti-left; but not in front of his gay leftist associates, of course. He pretends to be vehemently against aggressive, exploitative immigration, yet he works directly for the very people who drive this phenomenon globally. Zero integrity… no wonder he loathes himself.

Is it any wonder that such a person would suffer from schizoid personality disorder?

Of course he’s lost his fucking marbles when he can never be himself, when his integrity has been totally erased, sold out, and eradicated; voluntarily, I might add.

And voluntary denial of self is even worse than the involuntary loss of the true self from the trauma of abuse. When you’re traumatised, you reluctantly conclude that you deserved the abuse, and you are forced to deny yourself. However, when you voluntarily deny yourself to navigate arbitrary social demands, you aren’t murdered against your will; you willingly commit suicide; and the death of self is total.

Give your fake personas enough time and energy, and they will take over your body, mind, and soul: this is schizophrenia, the irreversible death of the true self, and the rise of fake personas with — quite literally — their own minds hijacking your now vacant mind, body, and soul.

My younger brother isn’t any better. With crippling mommy and daddy issues, he’s managed to sacrifice his entire being to a total feminist, man-hating matriarch who terrorises him. He is totally terrified of an ugly woman’s threats and shaming language… Oh, coincidentally, she’s a psycho psychiatrist too. What were the odds!

Now I make a conscious effort to ignore messages and flat-out refuse to talk to people who would require me to compromise my authentic self, my integrity, to do so. I value my dignity too much to compromise my integrity for cheap, meaningless approval.

Even petty provocations I brush off as the petty annoyance of a buzzing fly, unless there is a direct threat to me. But a petty provocation, or meaningless display of disrespect from people whose disrespect honours you, is nothing more than an invitation to compromise your integrity, to get an emotional rise out of you, to get you to grant them your attention, and thus your validation. You validate them when you take them seriously. And when you validate people with antithetical values, even if you validate them by responding to their pretty provocations, you lose a piece of your integrity. And then you lose your mind to them and become like them, because their non-existent integrity is why they are like that.

Insanity is an infectious disease. Stay away from the insane, lest you join them.

It’s simple. Treat provocative idiots like annoying flies. They can be annoying, but don’t grant them the respect of agency and free will. They don’t have agency or free will. This is not an excuse to get them off the hook; this is an explanation to take away meaning from their petty provocations.

Be very careful who you choose to interact with, who you give access to you. Every interplay is an influence. Every connection is a potential infection with the pathogen of insanity. Every interaction has the potential to compromise your integrity.

So, choose who you allow to access you. Even asserting yourself against those who would seek to erode your integrity may end up making them win, simply because you gave them the time of day, the time, the effort, the energy. When possible, a total severing of any and all communication and interaction channels is your best option. You don’t need to convince them of anything. You don’t need to prove them wrong. You don’t need to get them to see your side. You don’t need to make them understand. All you need is to totally erase them from your life if possible. And if not, you need to keep as much physical and emotional distance as possible. They are dead to you. Bury them to move on.

Always remember: When you’re in a place or situation where you can’t be yourself, where expressing your true, natural behaviour would be penalised or, at the very least, not respected, you will be tempted to withdraw the true self and allow all your fake personas — the archons — to take over. Those multiple personalities are your false self, the devil you sold your soul to.

When you deny yourself long enough, you go insane. Schizophrenia is the affliction resulting from the consistent compromising of your integrity and your persistent denial of your true self.