hello! this is an outlet for my brain usually i try and intellectualise my thoughts or mask them in what i think other people expect to see this i...
often i see videos or posts or some other medium of expressing content tackle the 'the curse of self awareness' or something along those lines it always tickles me that people will comment something like 'omg yes, this is me, i am so self aware it's crazy' and like, are you? with a comment like that? i feel like the most sincere comments i see online are people who comment and the feeling that…
why do i always need to be doing something but when i am doing something it's the thing i don't need to do then i get tired from this doing something, but not the thing i want to be doing, then i feel bad about it what gives
this kind of came up today in a discussion between friends i am probably what people would describe as a textbook people pleaser i tax myself too much to try and make things easier for other people, to the point that it frustrates me but i won't compromise on who i am out of frustration (another pet peeve for another post) in the workplace, to me as a basic concept, i am there to do work and make…
usually i am v performative and that makes me mask what i want to write - or i write what i think people want to hear i am feeling flat at the moment lots of things happening, lots of thoughts - but fast thoughts, not slow thoughts slow thoughts are good, but boring, fast thoughts are commonplace but lack cohesion fast thoughts want to do everything, even when there is no time, or there are bigger…