A blog for endless tinkering,\ an archive of whatever,\ half-baked thoughts, rants and ideas\ for fun, for catharsis 2026 {{ posts|tag:2026 }} 2025 {{...
I finished my first half marathon (21 km) last Sunday. It was anticlimactic. It was really a goal I set for this quarter. But I ended up attempting (and achieving) it way too early. The night before, I was just planning to go for a long run. Definitely not a half marathon. After the first 5 km, I was still contemplating whether to try to finish a half marathon. My longest run was 18 km. By 10 km,…
You used to be an achiever. You had big dreams. You wanted to be a writer to tell stories. You wanted to be a musician to share your songs. You wanted to have a high-paying corporate job. You wanted to travel the world and experience cultures. You wanted to hike the mountains to be close to nature. You wanted to take dance lessons. You wanted to play the piano and the drums. You wanted to learn…
Earlier today, my son got mad over a lost toy. He refused to eat and listen to me. This was one of the times when I found it challenging to discipline him. I am almost always torn between being authoritative and gentle. I worry that raising my voice even slightly will have a negative effect on him. But I’m also not always convinced that gentle parenting works. There’s a third option though, one I…
My old blog used to go by the name Sleepy Sir . It was simple and quite memorable, thanks to some alliteration. Then I tried something in the lines of ram's space , ram's zone and eventually settled on ram's blog . Simple. But another brainstorming took place. For the nth time, I wanted something different. Here on Bear, I was purpleramz for some time. I think this was when I was able to talk to…
Why does life have to be complicated? Or rather, why do we make it complicated? I could count on one hand the mornings I woke up feeling excited for the day. Whether it's my perpetual lack of sleep or something else, I have no idea. Life, in general, has been very tiring. I cannot shake off that feeling of uneasiness, loneliness, pressure, being behind. From the surface, it probably looks like I…
She's tired of being alone. She makes him happy. She's excited to be with him. She laughs a lot. She's funny and energetic. She loves him. He enjoys every moment with her. But there are times when.. ..he yearns for solitude. ..he likes to be alone with his thoughts. ..his energy fades. But he doesn't want her to feel alone. He wants to always be there for her. He loves her. ..
I got my fifth tattoo. The last one was in December 2024, and I've been wanting another since last year. Today, I finally got to scratch the itch. Nothing grand, just a minimalist piece. I see myself as an idealist and a romantic, in my own way. I tend to romanticize things, if that's even the right term. I find comfort in quiet, fleeting moments. Rain, sky, sunsets, celestial bodies. Hence, the…
I had a bad sleep last night. For some reason, my body couldn't seem to find the best sleeping position. I barely got any decent rest. By 4 A.M., I was already awake. Going back to sleep felt hopeless, so I read a chapter of my current read instead. A few minutes past five, I decided to just go for a run. I thought about doing an easy run or a PR attempt, and eventually chose the latter. I was…
"Life is an unpredictable game", says the shirt I saw the other morning on my way to work. Game Lately I've been thinking of ways to gamify life. Things I could do to break the routine. I'm imagining missions, objectives, side quests and power-ups. Sounds shallow, but could be proven useful if done intentionally. Life is already boring and tedious. Let's make it more interesting. Unpredictable…
All things considered, January was not good for me. A lot has happened since the new year kicked in. The fireworks did not erase much of the bad luck I guess. Before all the 2026 stuff, I just want to do some shallow review, with highlights and stats for 2025. It isn't late for an annual review, is it? Highlights Jan - one of my friends got married Feb - first 15km run, father bought first family…