25 - I quit my job after 6 years
new horizons for me I guess
sepuluh kupang
You've entered the Rumah Sakit Jiwa willingly. Do not resist. Red / Ma-lazy-ian from Bolehland 🇲🇾. Not an everyday blog but just a place for my thoughts, ...
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24 - this monster known as validation
deep sunday morning reflections that I meant to write earlier but forgot. have a stock image black cat
23 - Jax and the death of the audience: a personal opinion
to people unwilling to do the work, is "develop better media literacy" a viable solution?
drawing of the day #12 - a good time shared with friends
happy pride!
drawing of the day #11 - art dump
I mean sometimes all you can do is just put it on paper (traditional or digital) right
22 - it gets to a point
TW: suicide There's an irony in writing this post when there are a few posts already written about the subject of suicide and self harm shortly before this. It's a difficult thing, living after the fact that you've survived a suicidal attempt. Sometimes you think yourself stronger for surviving it. Other times, like today, it rears its ugly head. Convinces you that your mother's very gentle words…
21 - life updates
First of all, my apologies for leaving this blog with a rather morbid vent and then disappearing for like...a month or so. I had been busy caring for mom post-mastectomy while trying to navigate overstimulation and other ADHD-induced bullshit because I can't afford my Ritalin right now, so my art, my writing and my enjoyment of my favorite critically acclaimed MMORPG went down the drain rather…
20 - the heart is heavy
You'd think after 10 or so years of fighting with major depressive disorder, you'd have it all figured out - how to tell when you're entering a state of deep despair, your strategies to cope, and so on and so forth. And in those 10 years, I am getting somewhat better at that. But there are still days when sometimes the pain and despair is so heavy that you can feel your heart sink from the weight…
drawing of the day #10 - stop crunching!!
So on the 18-19th of April, as of writing this, there will be an anime convention happening in Sunway, Kuala Lumpur (or would you consider Sunway city to be in Selangor?). I didn't get a booth there, but my friend did, so I'll be selling my Comic Fiesta leftovers and some new stuff there with her help. So there I was, thinking "oh I want to make more prints. but I'll be realistic. Two prints…
drawing of the day #9 - touching grass with limited energy
I haven't shaken off the post-Eid fatigue very much yet, and honestly it's a mite bit distressing, especially when work is starting to pick up and my mom will be going into surgery soon (as in next week, as of writing this post). Alhamdulillah though, I did have the energy to muster enough to open a few sketch commissions (three for now, I'm still waiting on one client to send in his references,…