Cope + Paste, a blog we all used to be someone else, it's just a matter of accounting for the differences. I t...
So I've been messing around with running an LLM on my computer because I want to understand the technology better and I do think it can provide me with some support in certain areas (like writing basic python scripts, to perform stupid tasks like extracting text and formatting from an html file of a ff.net page so I can save something that is personally important to me to an epub to keep on my…
Sometimes I wonder if living with anxiety means that the only time I really feel alive is when I feel like something is trying to kill me. Not in a "daredevil" kind of way - I'm actually extremely risk-averse in basically most areas of my life. But in a "if I can't feel my anxiety, how do I know I'm still breathing?" kind of way. Living with anxiety sucks. It means that at any moment you can be…
So obviously AI is extremely evil and the boys over in silicon valley are wetting themselves over their fantasies of destroying the world via sentient computers and how they'll be part of the over-class who never have to work while the rest of us live in the dirt because we can't afford to buy tokens or whatever. It's an industry built (like most technology) on privatizing public goods and…
I keep trying to write things on this blog that aren't just.... Me letting off steam. But so far it hasn't worked. I'll just keep screaming into the void, because it's cathartic and I like doing it. My roommate has threatened me with a forthcoming 6 month intervention (I work too much). I'm really for sure quitting the job that is trying to suck the life out of me, in part because the HR lady…
I'm being forced to learn how to use QuickBooks Online, a program that is, actually, designed to torture anyone who knows what they're doing. It's really impressive how they managed to build a piece of software that seems to make less sense specifically BECAUSE I know how to do the tasks its supposed to "help" with manually. Now, I will admit that I've been spoiled (for some definition of the word…
I very specifically don't want to talk about anything serious right now. I had a bunch of weighty thoughts today and while I think it would be nice to work them over and share them at some point; I've been working long hours at the job I'm trying to get away from, and cramming in work for the things I'm trying to build around the edges. I had made a semi-serious promise at the beginning of the…
So pretty much the exact week I decided to really commit to quitting my job, I immediately poured water into my backpack and got both my laptop and my tablet soaking wet. Yay! The tablet (an iPad pro 11" from 2020) was unsalvageable, and had to be replaced. Alas. The laptop thankfully (macbook pro 16" from like last year) was not too wet and was able to be dried out (longest three days of my life)…
I'm in the process of trying to quit my job. My negotiating skills are pretty pessimal, mostly because I'm an inveterate people pleaser. I also do best when dealing with real resistance/pressure. It can be tough to "negotiate" when it feels like the other party doesn't have a position of their own to negotiate ... against? (Is that what you would call it? I'm not sure.) I know what I want, and I…
Obviously, that's a big question. What does anyone deserve? Happiness? A chance to live a full and satisfactory life? Opportunity to reach our full potential? Good things? Bad things? Our just desserts? But actually, in this case, I'm talking about remuneration. Specifically, how much do we deserve to be paid? Obviously, that's also a big question. I don't have a secret formula or perfect approach…
I had a fantasy of writing on this blog every day. I might get there, in time. But for now, I need to remember that there are limitations on my time and capabilities. I'm in the final stretch of the final semester to get my B.S. in Accounting. I went back to school three years ago to get what can more readily be described as a "professional degree". I have a B.A. in Journalism. Being an…