Blogging is hard mainly because I think too much about what other people think of me. I have another blog that I was serious about but unfortunately abandone...
Two months ago, in the foggy midst of wedding planning, I wrote this to post anonymously on Reddit. I was extremely sad and frustrated by how things were going. I eventually decided not to post it because I didn't want advice like "leave your husband" that Redditors would inevitably leave, sinking me further into the despair I was in. I wanted to reflect on my wedding now that it's about 1.5…
On keeping a notebook - Joan Didion On self-respect - Joan Didion
This post is about libraries and procrastination. I've wanted to go to my library for months. I think I got the idea to do so 1.5 years ago, when I first moved into this apartment. However,I did everything that I could to slow down my progress towards going there. I wrote "Go to library" in my bullet journal I typed "Go to library" in my Apple Reminders app and scheduled it to remind me every…
There's this idea going around on TikTok as 2025 ended-- throughout the year, you need to obtain 1000 rejections. A rejection here doesn't solely include formal rejections ("I regret to inform you..." types). Things like emails going unanswered, content not getting the engagement you desired etc, count as a "No" towards your goal. This resolution idea seems more attainable than all the other…
This article has had a large impact on my life since I read it a few months ago. In it, the "Recovering Overthinker" describes Morita-- the Japanese philosophy of letting go of preconceptions of how your experiences should be and participating in life despite your expectations of how your subjective experience should look. For eg, imagine you avoid going to the gym because you are anxious about…
This ripped mathematician told me that I should have big, fat goals. The human condition is striving and having big goals give you a reason to wake up in the morning. So, here are my big goals: Become a rich, non-famous person. So make at least 1 million USD a year Get ripped-- be in the best physical shape for someone my age and my size. Follow a consistent training schedule. This will become…
I love those videos where people try out a thing for a period of time (usually 7-30 days) and record their experiences with them (eg1, eg2). In keeping with the energy of this LessWrong post and considering the fact that I might be a "special snowflake", here are a list of things I would like to try out this year (if I can): Bullet journaling for 15 days Waking up at 5:30am to finish work by 2pm…
My partner (who I will refer to as R for the rest of the post) and I are trying to get engaged this year by April. We have discussed everything about it-- the ring budget, the location (mostly -- the specifics are supposed to be a surprise for me), and how to let the parents know. In the "Western model" of doing this, I think the couple invites their families to a dinner or a house party and lets…
I don't know why I started a blog because writing is so hard. I haven't written something for my blog in ages so every word I type evokes a scratchy, unstable emotion in me. Is this.... writer's block? Holy shit. I have a great idea for a blog post-- about how I hate giving and receiving gifts. It's relatable but just controversial enough that I don't attract too much attention. But I just can't…
By sick, I mean mentally and physically not at your at least 50%. For the last two weeks, that's how I have felt. It all started with a bad deadlift that popped a blood vessel in my head. I was dizzy for a week and a half and sported a bright red eye that just wouldn't go away. Then, it was allergies. My eyes kept swelling every morning and were unbearably itchy. My dizziness and red-eye went away…