this is an attempt to articulate my thoughts less self-consciously. currently doing weeknotes (hopefully i will follow through) about my mental health (or av...
i'm so afraid of the future. the near future. i thought i'm at rock bottom. but apparently the rock bottom has a dungeon. i am not okay. things are not looking good. just like how my country's currency is plummeting now, i'm plummeting and i don't know how to save myself anymore. i don't know what to try anymore. this condition is so isolating by nature, and i, having isolated myself so many…
my crochet purse is almost finished. i just need to make the strap and i'm still looking for a simple but not ordinary pattern that would not use up too much yarn because i literally only have one bundle left. i think i've found it and it's gonna look like a chain which i think is pretty but not so frilly. other than that it really is a blur. I've been reading two books simultaneously, watching…
i thought it would be helpful for myself to start a series of weeknotes, oddly because i'm not doing great right now. i'm currently on therapy for a disorder my therapist and i are still figuring out, and i've been doing so well but then i started to crash like a month ago or so, and it's been downhill from there. i've stopped exercising, i forget too often to take my meds and vitamins, and my…