Today I Am Looking

Today I am looking

for grace

and I found it at the end

of the tips of my fingers

and in the feel of the earth

beneath my feet.

I am its willing hostage, this feeling

of being in love with everything

without boundary.

I don’t want to be who I was—

caught up in ravenous need

to be more, to understand, to control.

This is better, this falling in love with everything

as if I were in each moment walking

into a reunion. And then the rooted knowing:

I had never left—all the years

of separation was a story, a confusion

that pulled me away from this original oneness,

beyond knowing, without name,

and big enough to swallow questions and answers both

until there was nothing but silence,

and the rising and falling of waves

on the surface of the stream

passing over the witnessing

that no longer needs to understand.

~ Peter Bolland