有点生不如死了
too sick recently since 4.13
king belly
Belly is the name of my cat. 03/23/2026: There are several reasons why I start to blog. I want to capture glitters of my thought as I realize my memory ...
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its been 10 days
找不到学习的兴趣... about to fail a final & just doomed scrolled for so so long yesterday
松弛一点吧！（附四月日记）
松弛的好处有以下几个， AFSOC，如果不松弛，还是会焦虑，但是本质上并没有做出任何改变。所以得出不松弛永远是一条更坏的路径（Assume you simply overthink with no action) 松弛会让你更好manifest, 因为一直想着好的事情，事实就会真的满满变好 于是我要现在开始practice：凡事发生必有利于我；我未来一定会拥有很好的生活；我已经非常棒了！ 四月日记： 4/5, 我又想重新开始vlog了，对自己想拍的东西有了点新的想法，发现了很好的软件(blackmagic & final cut camera)，准备去加拿大试试！但是可能要写脚本 4/4, spend a lot of time on Obsidian (again), i just love this app like there is nothing wrong with it...…
老天在惩罚我吗？作为一个脆弱的人
老天最近给了我很多考验，真的很多，我意识到我心理还是不够强大，我会在这些事件中成长！
good lord please help
good lord please help. What a week.
我终于不是无业游民了！（中文）
TLDR：经历了长达 5 个月的实习求职，我最终拿到了TikTok的SWE intern Offer。我必须对我妈妈表示无尽的感谢，如果没有她，我脆弱的心灵应该支撑不到现在。我也想感谢和我一起在找工市场努力的朋友们，如果没有她们，我的校园生活会变得很糟。 我从 2026 年 9 月左右投出了第一份申请，但回想起来，整个秋季学期我做得远远不够，或者说不够聪明。当时我拿着一份很烂的简历投了 100 多份申请，完全没意识到自己是在做无用功。更糟的是，很多大厂岗位在发布几天后我才去投，结果石沉大海。…
I finally ended up somewhere! (English)
TLDR: After 5 months of internship hunting, I finally secured a Software Engineering intern on Ads MSP team at TikTok, based in San Jose. My first internship application was made around September 2026, but looking back, I wasn’t doing enough—or at least, I wasn’t being smart enough—during my fall semester. I submitted around 100 job applications with a subpar resume, not realizing I was just…
power of commitment
It is important to do what you promised others. Or else, simply don't make that promise!
I think I need to get stronger
Title! I will be stronger!
A new perspective
I will be assigning these three stats to my life: 1. HP - Energy How it works: Depletes as long as eyes are open; can only be restored by sleeping. Feel energetic with high HP, when HP hits zero, system will operate a forced shut. 2. MP — Willpower How it works: Depletes when doing things that go against your immediate desires; there is no direct way to restore MP. With low MP, can't cast…