cheers for the drunken pilot of life...
ibu, muntahkan semua yang tak lagi laku dari sukma-mu. kuburkan tembuni-ku dengan setiap nama-nama jalang yang kau sebut-sebut itu. runtuhkan hijab dari kantungmu ibu, dengar gema setan-ku berdansa mesra dengan dosa. dosa yang aku cipta saking tak terlahir dalam mewah kaya-raya. jangan biar aku pulang ke rahim-mu, ibu. atas nama segala dewataraya, akan ku menderhaka pada janji ke tujuh puluh itu.…
There were thirst and hunger, and you were the fruit. There were grief and ruins, and you were the miracle. - Pablo Neruda
aku harap punya syurga yang lain buat mereka yang bertahta di dunia- sebab Tuhan itu mudah untuk kau jumpa, bila kau punya segala di dunia. ah, mudahlah untuk tangan yang tak pernah mencacai mengangkat terima kasih untuk Tuhan. sebab Tuhan itu mudah untuk kau cinta, bila hidupmu tak pernah kenal erti derita dunia. ah, mudahlah untuk mulut yang tak pernah berlapar berteriak syukur pada Tuhan. sebab…
I've learnt a thousand metaphors to decipher what love feels like before I met you and none of them were as pretty as the day I decided to love you You were never good with words but I was worse with living So in another life I'll take those bullets again, surrendered to my demons again before I find you again So I'll re-learn how to walk again, to see again and to feel again Because I will never…
I love you in all ways that would horrify the livings. Never softly— I love you in ways my body will refuse to be buried six feet under, where my unfinished feelings keep tapping against the coffin lid. My love is unresolved, my love will never learn to rest Death will try to silent me with the language of worms, fill my lungs with soil but my hands— they will never learn restraint. My mouth will…
Jika semua indahku hilang Buruk, kotor aku Tanganku masih kau cium tanpa ragu Dengan lembut, kau menunggu aku tumbuh Kadang disiram air, kadang disiram tangis Tapi banyaknya racun yang terlanjur menyakiti Anehnya, aku masih diterima Dengan lembut, kau usahakan untuk aku sembuh Perlahan kau lucutkan gementarku, bawa tenang dalam geloraku Tapi banyaknya teriak menyuruhmu kalah Anehnya, aku masih…
The time has come The hour of departure And I shall leave And with you, everything sank White rose left at cemetery of our memories Cupid's dead, pilot's wounded Turbulent drunkenness of our love Our laughs now echo in the pit of debris Lost discoverer and despaired hopes O' you swallowed everything! The time has come The hour of departure And I shall set sail O' you, the abandoned one
That quiet night, I saw the devil in me dancing around the pavements of the street we won't walk on ever again The moon were eerily dimmed, and now I think she was trying not to glance in our affairs The car was curiously loud and now I think it was dying not to let me remember your voice, which now I long for They won't let me consume you and now I think you were sincere for you never knew I was…
buat lelaki kuat yang aku panggil milikku dalam menghidupkan aku, kau telah mati-matinya mencinta buat lelaki hebat yang aku panggil milik aku dalam membina aku, kau telah sehancur-hancurnya berjuang siapalah perempuan dicermin itu tanpa cinta kau di tulang belikatku yang utuh bertaut menungguku tumbuh yang kekal berdiri menyalakan nyawaku siapalah perempuan dicermin itu tanpa kamu merayakanku di…
up until this day i still wonder how do you feel about our child who will never gets your name. were you bruised by the flame i left you or was it just an itch you could scratch away. say, do your bedsheet still smells like my innocence? or did you painted your walls blue? cloudy was the day when your lips uttered my name for the last time, sad was my friend on the ride home, you gave every…