Personal diary and thoughts from Nika Siradze
If you ever see me speaking in public, freely with the best performance keep in mind that i never stopped to achieve that simple thing today i had terrible public speak, full of anxiety, full of out of script directions i missed a lots of core details and lost again it’s not about lost lost is not first and even not last, i’m okay with that but it’s about having same issue again and again…
"what's next?" "what to do tomorrow?" "where to go?" i constantly feel pressure of next step i have to be careful, you have to do it right if my goal is to reach certain heights, i should not be afraid of taking steps, even wrong steps what will happen if i slow down? trying to be perfectly careful is just a trap. it paralyzes you i'd rather make ten wrong moves at full speed than spend my life…
every year, our wishes are for a better future sometimes it’s not actually depending on us bust mostly it is if you're reading this and think something is off with your life it’s time for it to change starting with small things, like actually minimal changes waking up early, writing down stuff, etc at the end, it will do the thing, consistent changes will keep you up top this diary is a reminder…
"i wanna build something, that people will be proud of" this was my words at 13 things have changed, almost the decade has passed but i still have this words in my head "remember who you wanted to be" even if everything falls out, you should always remember it remember what you promised to yourself what was your motivation of moving forward this hits hard when you get older and realize, but starts…
i was working a lot on something very locked in, fully focused ayo - this needs to be coolest product with tiny details and motions spent a lot of time on it tested not only code level, even visually all manual work was in it i even posted it on X it got 20 views, in a week 10 star in a months on Github but why? doing this for what? spending hours, days, weeks, even months and years on something…
there's a kind of knowing that only shows up when no one's watching you can study something for months, build with it, live inside it, and still, the second someone asks you to explain it out loud, the words just run i learned this the hard way once, in an interview at a company i loved a lot, i froze completely. he asked me basic questions, stuff i could answer in my sleep, and somehow nothing…
this is me in 2026…
During the years of continuous work I haven’t cared about my health at all I mean, not entirely, but I haven’t had active hobbies Just board games, video games, and my girlfriend who was trying to hang me out somehow But no, my goal was to develop a future And I was right, but not in a way of how I was doing it After my journey in SF, I realized many things We should take care of ourselves, people…
I mean, when I first created this diary thing, I thought I could write with more frequency But Every day tasks, the things I care about, make me focused on other stuff more Especially after the career break (idk if I can call it that) Now things have changed, it’s like the sun after a long dark night But I kinda feel I’m not in a place where I should be Got many projects, many things to think…
I was right about the "[link:Year of change:/diary/year-of-change]" thing 2025 started with achieving my biggest dream, and I thought I moved to new phase But everything just dropped down and broke I think this was the biggest downfall for me in the last 2 years When you get used to the thing that you built and care about, and then suddenly you have to leave it, I don’t know how to explain that…
Dreams can be a goal instead, as they will be accomplished if you look from this perspective. If you asked me a year or two ago what’s my dream, I’d definitely tell you it is living in the USA. But I was looking at it just like a dream which was too far away, and I couldn’t imagine how to get there. No, you don’t have to think about it. take it as a goal that SHOULD happen. And it happened. It…
At the start of the year, I didn’t even imagine how this year went I attended 3 conferences and visited 4 countries for the first time Moved to a new apartment Moved to a lead position Built my dream work setup Started learning French (still rudimentary) And so on, which I don’t remember now Most importantly, I had those goals, and I achieved them More are ahead in 2025! 🚀
Everything starts from something I love how modern chat interfaces look like I also love reading blogs hmmmmmmm, why not to merge both? here you are, welcome to my diary 🚀