Notes from a life paying attention.
Two problems arrived in the mailbox, but so did their answers. By noticing my familiar rush into fear and allowing my mind to quiet, practical solutions appeared almost immediately. It made me wonder how often life places answers directly before us, while panic keeps us from recognizing what is already there.
Watching a child grow is both beautiful and bittersweet. Their innocence does not disappear; it becomes layered beneath fears, memories, and hard-won armor. Perhaps growing up is less about losing the child within and more about entering a cocoon, where transformation quietly prepares us to emerge free once again, whole.
I sat in my office, text messages, emails, and phone calls frantically pouring in. I felt like I wanted to scream into a pillow, my head felt like it was in a vise. The phone sat on the desk in front of me, as if waiting for me to acknowledge its demands. A multi-million dollar Continue reading "The Hidden Gift Under the Chaos "
When I catch myself in those useless thought loops, what if I just recall a time when I felt calm and open, let my body drift toward that feeling, and watch the loops gradually dissolve? It's less about forcing mental discipline and more about choosing the state I want to inhabit; remembering what it feels like, quieting my mind enough to let my body shift into that remembered space.
I worked my way into a Director position many years ago and with that role comes its own gifts and challenges. One of the rewards is that I am no longer responsible for day-to-day schedules, call-offs, and employee disputes. Now, just ahead of me, the manager is going on vacation, leaving me to cover for Continue reading "The Same Ground, New Eyes"
Part 1: The Problem About 6 months ago, I got a GlowForge Aura. It was my first laser engraver/cutter, but I had CNC experience with a Genmitsu 4040-Pro Max and assumed that knowledge would transfer. It was not quite what I expcted though. I should have researched GlowForge more before buying. It s a good device, Continue reading "Aligning Engravings on the GlowForge Aura with a 3D-Printed Corner…
Over the past year, I've discovered a creative drive I didn't know existed. This journey mirrors a decade of inner work, but now played out in the experienced world. I'm learning that the same attentiveness I cultivated in solitude can be brought to the act of making itself.
When we strip away old beliefs, we create a dangerous void; one that's easy to fill with new dogmas. But what if instead of rushing to fill it, we let our own experience be our guide? A personal essay on reclaiming spiritual sovereignty, one journal entry at a time.
Why would 'The One', 'The Cosmic', 'God' enter into division and multiplicity? Why do we experience the material world? And...was Hitler evil?