FALSE MEMORIES - nailsthatglow
FALSE MEMORIES - nailsthatglow
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Reading is apparently hard
So … I am a bit of a slut. A gloriously divine slut.
I did a job
I am old. Some of you know how old because you both pay attention and watched one of my videos where I tell you how old I am. I might have lied but you know how it is. After the first few centuries it is hard to really r...
Thoughts about life
(redacted)
Do not do this
Two things I want to express.
I am about to be
Today I started rough.
Do you feel the same
Feet Picture
I do not have a type
Today I decided I was a little sad. I encountered a bit of rough energy from a friend. I am not really feeling hungry. All I want to do is drink coffee. I try to focus on things and then get extremely sleepy. I wake up f...
Inside me there is a machine
I have been sharing my experience and observations with someone when it comes to art. They are thrilled and I am so excited to see an energy that I used to have. It is inspiring me to look at my art in new ways. I am wri...
Today I thought about it
The things that have hurt me the most recently are on my mind. I wish I understood how to move past this shit in my head. There is simply nothing I can do about any of it. He people that have decided to make my life mise...
Take a hit of air
There are times I look around the space I am in. I remember to take a breath. It is not that I have forgotten to take a breath or anything. It is one of those moments I notice I inhale and exhale. I do this often without...
Sometimes I am asleep
I do not sleep well. I manage to sleep for four hours before I start waking up. An improvement over the two hours of sleep followed by waking up every twenty or so minutes for three or four hours more. This continues for...
I am falling alseep
I might be more sad than sad
I wish I could thrive
While there have been times I have been doing really good… none of it lasted. I would work very hard to be pushed out, fired or the company closes. I tried to get into acting and did some low-key stuff. Worked as a model...
Tell me lies (but also shut up)
I went to work today. Got through a good hour before I started crying. Thankfully it appears I am not fired entirely for having a breakdown my second day. I love working with queer people. I think I hate this kind of wor...
Fuck me running
Someone I thought I had feelings for accused me of terrible things today. She offered a narrative that goes against everything I hold to be true about myself. I reached out for help and found some support. The problem he...
My brain is actually not great
I am having a really hard time. Part of me was overwhelmed by this paperwork I had to do for these jobs I “have”. Let me explain…
No idea
Right now, I am brain dead. Something in my head is dead or dying or gone another thing.
My hair is wild
I cried so much today
I want to cry
I am so frustrated with life right now. On one hand I just had an amazing night with a person that… yeah. It was fun. A bit of a confusing thing in my head happened at one point but that is a whole story. There is a seco...
I lost the time and…
I am so frustrated, horny and feral…My feelings are getting hurt more everyday and I am not sure what to do.
Become unwelcome
Today I did two job interviews. Spent time with a friend and talked about some things that made me happy. Identifying how important someone is and that they feel the same is a special thing. It is nice making friends lik...
When I was asleep
I woke up early today and got notice of two job interviews. One of them is suspicious. I know I applied for a few things and honestly have no idea who this is. The company that called me is not in my list but they had my...
What to write about?
Today I felt like something new is happening. I cannot put a finger on it to be sure. There is a new pattern between me and someone. It is curious and exciting. Then there is my venture into trying new things sexually. I...
I wear underwear
More Great Sex FTW
How long does it take
How long does it take to process things entirely? How much of what we see are just filled in details we expect? Could it be that the GenAI stuff feels so strange and unnatural because it is acting like that filler buffer...
I am not sure
Tonight I lost all sense of my patterns. There are a few things that happened that have made me feel more complicated about going to the bathhouse tonight. Last week felt very strange and interesting when I think about i...
Once I thought of this blog
I was thinking about how I started this fucking thing. How I am a few posts away from seventeen hundred posts. A daily blog. Being messy and showing a picture each day. Showing up looking like a fucking mess and sometime...
Not sure how to feel
It is impossible for me sometimes. I am smart in a number of ways but impossibly stupid in others. The main issue I deal with is being anxious literally all the time. I even had a panic attack on the street with my roomm...
I decided to do something
I finally decided to do something. Could be a glorious train wreck but who knows. I did the one thing that makes things like that happen for me. A ritual of sorts I do when I start a new project. Not going to share what ...
I got topped tonight!
Can you see my nips?
Poopers!
There was a TV show not long ago that was a reboots of another show that did not need to be made. The result was a Queer show with some problematic depictions and frustrating stories. For whatever reason we needed a char...
I went out and…
I went out to the bathhouse after having a really nice day with someone that says I am their cat.
An interesting thing
I went on a date tonight. It was with someone I am not normally attracted to. They are genderfluid with some facial hair. Something about the profile on the date app and one picture got me. I was so worried about things,...
Not a terrible day
Tomorrow will be very interesting. I am expecting to get my hair cut tomorrow. I am not sure what I will get done. Will I go short or keep it long or what?
The design of time and shit
I am going to be very honest and tell you that I am very much in a bad space. I am broke, my job is a kind of work that does not offer me hours and is uncomfortable for me. Mostly because I am an introvert that acts like...
It might be okay because...
The smile is fake
Loss and Lies
Today was a terrible day.
Bathhouse
Tonight I went to the bathhouse.
Something feels wrong sometimes
Today I was confronted with some frustrating things. I can have an influence for sure but there are times I feel like people point at me for their problems. That feeling has only gotten worse since people have decided tr...
Oh fuck me running
Only a few weeks
Only a few weeks until I have a solid gig DJing again. It is not easy working with my depression, erratic work schedule and too many DJs being in the area. I am trying to push my way out of my rut but it is a slow go. I ...