Look Ups
I tried to call my friends and family, but no one is answering (aside from M), so I am telling my blog first - I got the job!!!! They really came through on a Friday afternoon. See my previous post for context.
Mug of Acorns
Blog Intentions Like many other Bear Bloggers, this site will serve as a creative output, to be filled with new and old thoughts. I want to avoid being hype...
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Let Downs
Yes, after 8 months, it finally happened. My job offer was rescinded. I was potentially offered a different role, but it would be a side step downward for me and my career intentions. Anyway, I am not really who they are looking for, and we all know it. I would be willing to try, maybe? The job offer came before the new administration took office, along with the new rulings that I myself voted for…
The Evolution of Anxiety
I've had anxiety my entire life, but was only diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) a year and a half ago. I was also diagnosed as autistic then too, but we'll stick to just GAD for now. My symptoms have evolved drastically over time, and it's been a journey. Childhood Anxiety When I was a child, perhaps starting around 6ish (can't quite remember the age), I used to experience what I…
Planning and Its Genres
There is a difference between planning for a party v planning for a community. My "reception" or 1-year wedding anniversary party is in less than 2 months, and we still have so much to do. This past weekend, I met my mom at my aunt's house (midway point). I tried on my wedding dress I wore to the courthouse last year. Turns out, a body can change a lot after a year and a severe drop in cortisol…
I Miss Somewhere Else
Last summer, I went to Finland. M and I ventured to many grocery stores while there, where I amassed a Moomin card collection. I thoroughly enjoy how these cards are categorized by type. The types I managed to gather were 2 seasonal cards, quote cards, tribute cards, character cards, photo album cards, adventure cards, and my favorite FLUFFY CARDS. I haven't opened a pack of cards since buying…
Sitting Silently
Yet another hot summer day in NYC. I sought shade. It was found in Ten Eych Park/Playground. I sat in the place for about an hour while I waited for M. I listened, albeit through my noiseless, noise-cancelling earbuds, to the children playing, the friends setting up nearby picnic tables for a cookout, and the men playing handball. It is not a large park, thus bringing people closer. Two little…
Seasonal Book Lists are for Nostalgia-Provoked People
Late last year, I decided to start preparing seasonal book lists. Originally, it was to ease the burden of choosing a new book every 2 weeks, or however long it takes me to read. My shelf has all sorts of stories that vary in genre, era, and pacing. To prepare my lists, I consider and attempt to choose books that are an even mix of the aforementioned elements AND that evoke feelings of the season…
Herridge Books
One of my favorite bookstores is Herridge Books in Wellfleet, MA, one of my favorite Cape Cod towns. This place was discovered by my dad and me when I was young (maybe 8ish?). The first book I got here was one of the Wizard of Oz series books; I think it was The Lost Princess of Oz . This series holds a special place in my heart, and since its origin for me was Herridge, the store too is a happy…
Cooking Woes
My friend, G, sent me a recipe last year that popped back into my mind this week. By chance, a YouTuber I like, @Malissa, also mentioned it in her recent vlog . On Wednesdays, M goes to band practice. Typically, this results in a "girl dinner"/an all-girls-for-themselves meal (iykyk). BUT, occasionally, I will try to actually make us something to eat for when he gets home. I recall this recipe…
(Matcha) Latte Bad Art
On many mornings lately, I take a photo of my latte art and send to my husband for his visual consumption. I find great joy in this pursuit. Latte art below is presented in general order of worst to best. Best being a very strong word. matcha bubbles matcha key matcha sperm? matcha flower hill matcha plume matcha guitar half matcha dot matcha slugs matcha bug matcha ship matcha deformed pine…