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I used to be a puppet, and now I'm an automaton. For the longest of time, I felt like life was just happening to me. I was going with the flow. Not because I wanted to drift, but because I had no other option. I never had any hobbies because everything felt like too much effort. I know... what a cliché, but if you read any of my other posts about ADHD (or if you have ADHD yourself), you…
I feel like a spent fuel rod from a nuclear reactor. Still technically full of energy, but unstable, overheating, and slowly running out of stamina and sanity. Ever since Atomoxetine stabilised my brain chemistry, I can just do shit now. It’s still such a surreal feeling, and I’m feeling a bit jet-lagged from it. I’m capable of doing things I wouldn’t even imagine doing last summer. Everything is…
This post is a continuation of this one where I talked about what my first psychiatric appointment was like. I highly recommend reading it first before you dive into this one because it contains a lot of context. Day 1 My first day on Atomoxetine was... definitely something. The memory of this day got permanently engraved into my skull. I took my first dose at around 7:20 after breakfast. Then I…
As I promised in my article about sleep , today I will be talking more about my ADHD. Prologue I'll start with a little bit of backstory. The first time I started really thinking there might be something genuinely wrong with me was the day I graduated high school. I have no fucking idea how I pulled that one off, but somehow, I picked all the questions and topics I knew pretty well. I'll…
New Year's resolutions are such a weird thing, aren't they? I think the majority of people who set them are doing so purely out of guilt and not an actual desire to improve or change something about themselves. Personally, I never set them before, but I mainly attribute that to the fact that I have only gained control over my life at the turn of November to December of 2025. The funniest…
I've heard many people describe themselves as perfectionists. Funnily enough, when you get to know them, you oftentimes learn that their lives aren't exactly perfect . This might lead one to think they're lying about their nature to make themselves sound more interesting, but I'm actually inclined to believe them. It might sound contradictory, but just because someone has high…
I never thought how fixing my sleep schedule could improve my life so much. It isn't an exaggeration to say I'm a different person now. It all began sometime at the end of the last month. I was anticipating my regular check-up by my GP, which has been postponed like 4 times because either they had a vacation or fell ill. Can't blame them for that; sometimes life just happens. I…
I've been suspecting neurodivergence in myself for some time now. My brain is very different to that of my peers or people in general I've met. It feels like running Linux in the world of macOS. Many of the core components and libraries are the same, but everything else is entirely different. The way you install packages (learn new information), the way you communicate with other devices…
I think the single scariest thing in this world, this universe, this plane of existence is the fact that you don't have to change. Seriously, you can keep repeating the same mistakes, you can keep reliving the same lessons over and over again. That is the blessing and the curse of having a free will. You know, I have contemplated this idea longer than I probably should have. There is no true…