I thought you wanted to live your life swimming?
I thought you wanted to live your life swimming?
Elliott's memory site
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Working artist
Lately I have been feeling more like a working artist. Everything seems based around the practice. Refining it a bit and archiving old work through the holiday. The archiving feels boring but good. It’s driven by a feeling I've had for some time: if I took my own work as seriously as client work things could be different. I think in the end I would like to try a more serious artist life. I suppose…
NYC mayor
Last night I watched the mayor inauguration. It's exciting to see the DSA in such a position now. Given how things have gone in the past I'm wary of anything actually changing but maybe this will be different. I guess time will tell. Watching it did make me a bit nostalgic about New York. I think at the end of my time living there I started to feel more a part of it. It gave me less anxiety and I…
Site making
What I love most about the medium of site making is that you don't know who exactly visits your site. By default there's no way of knowing. Even when you use analytics you never know precisely. Social media doesn't let you guess this. I feel like I can be more personal here and care less because the medium affords it. I think less about how a specific audience might perceive this. And there's no…
Valle Daone
In Val Doane wandering through the desktop background landscape. Almost too strange to consider it beautiful. Between the boulders on the right side of the river: it reminded me a lot of a garden I would visit when I was a kid. The short grass between the trees and rocks made for these alcoves that felt private yet this wasn't a garden. It really felt like a gardener had been here. There was a…
Running out of gas on highway 5
Running out of gas on the I-5 returning from visiting Alix and Dayton in LA. I landed the bronco in a field a few miles from the gas station as the sun set. I romanticized their life there. I remember staying for a party and feeling extremely awkward lol. Socializing outside of the bubble of their friendship felt difficult. Their kindness was comforting. Wandering the streets with them felt like a…
After the talk at Beckmans
Sitting outside Beckmans College after the talk. I felt so relieved that I survived and was starting to feel a little more human after being sick. The sunlight felt good. There was some guy surfing on one of those tech bro foil surf things. It reminded me of a time I saw a similar guy surfing one at Sugar Cove on Maui. It felt kinda surreal these images colliding. In the distance on the other side…
Important Projects
Important Projects... The embarrassing time I asked for a show there. Weirdly I didn't find it embarrassing at the time but friends told me to feel this way later. Funny how embarrassment can be learned. Everyone was always very drunk there. Always a lot of excitement in the air. I don't know if I'll ever feel his way towards art exhibitions again. The story Joel told us later about drinking wine…
Writing desk
New writing desk from December 5, 2025 at 21:18
Memory site posters
Made some posters for my memory site... Would love to claim some advertising space in the city for personal websites. Summer poster, 30 × 48 inches, [ download ] Spring poster, 30 × 48 inches, [ download ]
November check-in
I haven't written here for a while. Not that it needs to. It's okay if months slip by. This place is only meant for me, a way to remember things, to put a pin in certain memories. I returned from traveling. Back in routines. I thought I would change my life, but I'm embracing the patience. I don't recognize myself or my work in the internet theories that people are writing about. But that's okay.…
HTML Day 2025
this morning in the signal chat for html day i wrote... want to echo this :) huge thanks to everyone who organized! it's so beautiful to see everyone gathering offline and writing together. feeling very hopeful about the future of the web ❇️💚 it does feel like something is a little different this year. maybe it's more internal, like how i have been treating it. we took it a bit more seriously…
Memory and rent
Money has been on my mind. For the last 4 months, I've been living off web design work for a small art institution. It barely covers my expenses. Somehow, I've strung together these types of jobs for the last two years. The job will likely end a month from now. The stress of having to find another job to carry me through the next couple of months is returning. This way of living doesn't feel…
Sitting on the lanai writing to you
sitting on the lanai writing to you. i've paused messages/phone for the last day. in monk mode. [bells ringing] yesterday i was stuck thinking about the future again. the decisions i make now have real weight. i guess that's why i'm taking so much time with them. its not so light in the end. the internet has felt the most like home. when you've spent so much of your childhood here its difficult…
Loops
In the last year of my studies, I did an independent study with a painting professor I admired. The previous summer, I had attended his summer painting intensive in Iceland with other painting and printmaking students. During that trip, he gave my work a lot of praise, and it really made me feel like I was a painter. At first, he was hesitant about doing the independent study with me, but…
Web coaches
lately i've been feeling very hopeful about the web. i haven't felt this way since i was a teenager. i was on vimeo (before it was sold). the supportive nature of that community made me want to make videos and eventually websites. there was this community manager at vimeo whose sole job was to leave supportive, nice comments on people's videos haha. i think about this role often... how it would be…
Memory from SN's roof in Oakland
Today I had this vivid memory from SN's roof in Oakland. Climbing on top of the roof. Sometime in summer. You could see in all directions and down into the neighbors yard. You could also crawl to the edge and look down on the street. Something about the architecture of the roof made it feel like an extension of the apartment. walking onto the deck from the kitchen fence surrounding it to keep the…
Recording for May 13, 2025
Recording for May 13, 2025 I decided to re-record, because there's construction happening next door, and it's rather loud, and sometimes they'll just have this saw that goes on for like a minute. Um, what was I talking about? I guess I'll try to just like repeat what I said before, but in a different way. So I'm sitting in the sun on to Cecile's balcony, and she's in Berlin right now. So I've been…
Returning from the forest
Over the last week my vacation responder read: Hello! I’m currently in the forest and away from my computer. I’ll be slower to respond but will get back to you as soon as possible. A client emailed and wrote: Bumping this up! Hope the forest is good to you. I do think the forest was good to me. I don't have many reflections on the forest at this moment. It might have been more of a feeling trip…
Monk falling through sky
listening to the blindboy podcast . can't get the monk story out of my head... [ monk diving to the bottom of the ocean to free the anchor, discovering it is caught on a bell tower ] [ monks looking up seeing a monk falling/drowning in the sky ]