Therapy. Finally, an outlet, for people to listen. To understand, I wasn’t at fault. To know, I did what I could. Until I couldn’t, and wouldn’t. To vent, to bitch, to make them laugh at you, nothing is directed. Everything is scripted by me. My truths. My pain. My hilarity. My trauma dump. It’s my [ ]
Days of edits and rewrites.I can’t say that.Cuts and additions, extensions and reductions.No that’s not good enough.Having the perfect joke and not writing it down in time. Shaking on stage.Papers rustling in my hand.Too many words.I didn’t check the clock.I don’t even breathe.I hear nothing but the voice inside. I’m too fast, I’m not funny.They’re [ ]
No one knows.They cannot ever find out.Sadness is mine alone.I don’t let anyone understand. I sit alone.They stay in my presence.Unaware of the danger.I won’t let anyone ever get close again. I walk separately.They want me to be theirs.Belonging means nothing.Love is too easy to give up on. I stand independently.They will never have my [ ]
Hiya lovelies! Much has happened since the last post. I ve relocated, somewhat unsuccessfully to Ottawa, but am here, am happier than I was in the Maritimes. The ex and I are still in the same line of limbos for now, we ll have to start talking eventually, I ve got boundaries now. Slowly, I m chipping away the [ ]
Another load taken from the house, less evidence of our coupling. Stripping down a decade of dreams into boxfilled car loads of things I never want to look at again. The house sits empty but the whispers of false promises echo from within its walls. I try not to listen. The bedroom still smells like [ ]
Done. You took away parts of me.Holes gouged deep in my persona.Bits of data mined from a larger program.The computer now runs obsolete. Fill the holes with stuff and things.Eat, smoke, drink, replenish the void.A temporary fix to the problem.Depletion eventual, empty again inside. Try to fill the gaps with people.Not someone to have or [ ]
I see a lot of people talking about posting blog posts about their 2015 year. While I had an amazing 2015, I don t think I could write anything that would explain how perfect my 2015 was. Between our wedding, my near death, my graduation and our purchasing the farm, that alone would have taken up a multitude of pages [ ]
I m getting married In exactly 29 days. I m not sure when I decided to bake my own wedding cake, but I know it was a good idea at the time. With the deadline quickly approaching, maybe I don t exactly feel the same now. I ll get it done, I have to, and it will be amazing. [ ]
Well that exciting. I just ordered a Sansaire Sous Vide machine as a belated bday gift from the boy. 🙂 He was going to get me a cake airbrush, but then I figured why not get something I ll use more often. There s not much we don t have for the kitchen so I opted for something I ve been [ ]
I just finished a kick ass practical class. Today wasn t a special practical class, actually that was last week. My hey-day. I got to be Chef of the Day. This is where I choose the menu, and get to run the kitchen and expedite on line. Even though it was all that awesome, for some reason, [ ]