Hello! I'm Alyaa and this is my neurotic digital diary. You can read more about me here. Feel free to read through my latest posts here: {{ posts|limit:3...
Blogging and journalling are very different for me. When I blog, I have this idea that I need to have a message to deliver. But when I journal, I can let my mind be in its abstract form. It's partly because I know my post will be publicly available the moment I publish and the fear of judgement or having not made a post that has a point feels pointless. Anyway, this has been a post :) Subscribe to…
Lately, the stories of athletes who took time off from competition and the competitive spotlight have been on my mind. Two in particular are the stories of Alysa Liu and Ai Mori . I think I may be someone who tries to fit a narrative to her life because the stories of these two athletes bring hope to me that this time out from working could be beneficial for my "comeback". That I, too, could come…
I don't have any capacity to develop a thoughtful content today so I'll just be sharing a photo taken from my living room. We'll have to move out by October this year and I'll definitely miss this KL skyline view. Subscribe to my blog via email or RSS feed . Reply to this post via email
I figured that in the midst of my unemployment, I'd need some kind of project(s) to work towards. One of those projects I thought of is to do a blog a day, for 30 days. Posting a blog, to me, usually happens when a surge of inspiration or feeling can't contain itself inside and desires to be expressed. On most emotionally-mundane days, I don't feel the desire to post anything. However, for the…
I've worked close to 7 years and of those 7 years, I've been in 5 companies. Of those 5 companies, I've only stayed for a minimum of two years in 2 of them. Some of these career movements were by my own choice - I had wanted more growth out of my career (funnily enough more salary had always been secondary). While some of these career movements were by circumstances: not being a good cultural fit…
I've been drafting, and re-drafting various posts to get back to blogging. In the (relatively) short time of four months since my last post, I seemed to have lost the ability to just write what I have in my mind, in a coherent manner. First things first - I'm about to lose my job. Not because of a retrenchment, or a layoff. Not quite. It's more like.. a mutual agreement that I'm not a good fit…
For a while now I've envied those who seemed to always belong to a group of friends - those that seem to either have the go-to friend group or just many friend groups, in general. I have a particular friend in mind who embodies this persona, but I also express my story based on observations I've seen of other, more acquaintance-like-friends. These people seem to have a solid group (or groups) of…
Do you feel like intimacy is lacking in your life? Whether that's through friendships or romantic relationships? Sometimes I think about imaginary conversations I could be having with my girlfriends or even some of my friends or even my younger sister - conversations or laughter where we feel closer to each other. Do you ever think about that? Do you ever imagine that? Subscribe to my blog via…
I'm jealous of people who go for what they want out of their life. For an example, if someone says that they want to build a book club - they just go for it. There doesn't seem to be the learning part, just the doing part. Sometimes I'm embarrassed and frustrated that my perfectionist tendencies tend to get into the way of doing and achieving things. I tend to overthink, overanalyze, and…
it's a thursday night. a day after the new years eve excitement has settled down. adam is playing the guitar. i'm blogging. there's a special kind of coziness and peace i have trouble expressing in words, but i know i have imagined this kind of life, my whole life. we celebrated new years with some friends over, with some light snacks, and with some simple games. this year's celebration felt…