night like this

only got as far as the

salted rim,

all that i need

on a night like this

what does that mean

a night like this

like they are packaged soaps,

1.

i spent the night alone

checking the phone

too many times

2.

you came over after all

and we ate toast

and forgot the world

3.

i missed you

and shaved my legs

and thought of you

4.

i drank too much

and had to sit in my car

for a half hour

5.

my girlfriend and i

sent each other ridiculous texts

while i baked cookies

6.

the apartment smelled of smoke

so i shut the windows

and washed all of the sheets

7.

i walked the street

half zen, writing poems in my head

half vigilant, car keys engaged in palm

8.

i went to a movie alone

yes, it’s true

there aren’t many of these

9.

i saw his name in my inbox

like a flare

and dared myself not to read it

10.

my body hurt

epsom salt bath

and i prayed to no one

one of these?