kaz's informal blog for thoughts and updates
For me, the venn diagram of autistic burnout and creative burnout has a lot of overlap between the component circles, but there are a few things that distinguish them from one another. With creative burnout, there are a lot of art-adjacent activities that can revitalize me, provided I'm cautious and take my time not to exhaust or overload myself. Going on long walks, hanging out with friends, a…
I think I'm probably gonna go to the grave bitter than tech bros and the billionaire class are starting to make me hate robots. Robots (in fiction) have been my beloved little guys, my conduit, my fascination for a long, long time. I've always enjoyed stories with robots at the center, where robots are a part of the worldbulding and cast; there are so many interesting concepts to explore with them…
drew some stolitz after the new short on stream last night, made a patreon post. and here's the vod: youtube
Oh my gosh I finally reorganized my resources page and added a link to my navigation like i've been meaning to do for approximately eighty four years, and separated out some of it into a 'fun' page. I'm not quite sure why I chose today, other than I've been on a reorganizing spree and I finally have a working keyboard again. Thinking about it though.... that is very likely exactly why! My old…
Okay, I've been meaning to talk about books and games and things I've been into for ages and I keep putting it off. If I can keep up with it better I'll try to go a bit more in depth with my thoughts, but for now, here's just some of the things I've been into lately. Sorcery and Small Magics by Maiga Doocy I loved this book a lot!! it's a really great, REALLY slow slowburn with extremely cool…
so i've been meaning to make a post for ages, and just haven't had the energy... just gonna drop a bunch of stuff i've been doing before i forget to mention them all. I made a webring ! I've been wanting to make one for hellaverse for a while so my friends could all join and i finally did it! i did not realize how much having a domain redirect from kayzowl dot com to my neocities was going to be a…
once upon a time this was what my portfolio looked like and now it looks similar but with quite a few changes! I like it a lot better now, although I'm still tweaking it. But that's just how webdev goes. I've been wanting a font that's a little more customized to me and my style, and I finally found one I like! I started using it on my link hub page, and then I decided to finally make the switch…
I'm planning to offer Surprise Me commissions on ko-fi, so i've been working on that in between finishing up the last couple exchanges I signed up for. I also am phasing out carrd, so I added a links page to be an easy-to-navigate hub, and I added my TOS to my commission queue page, so all my commission info is in one place which honestly makes much more sense. I probably won't delete my carrd,…
public post with shop updates, links to minibang collabs I worked on, and also a timelapse for one of the illustrations I did.
shop update, minibang art teasers, and some future merch previews in this public post.
this post is locked to members for now, and will go public in a week. just some stuff I was workin on today and previews for merch I want to make eventually, mostly stickers. and also a lil pikmin update.
You know how sometimes there's a thing you've been meaning to do or learn for a really long time and just never could figure it out or the right circumstances never happened, and then one day they do and you're like oh, that was super easy, why didn't I do this ages ago? so I added my askbox to this blog with an iframe! LMAO iframes always seemed intimidating to me for some reason and I never had…
some patreon-exclusive art and an update for members
I updated my fic archive so it includes all the fic I wrote in 2025, of which there was a little over 80k. Including one that was an anonymous kink meme fill! There are two fics in that archive that don't show up on my ao3 profile, which I think is fun. I'm not gonna say which ones, though, so you'll have to go dig for them if you're determined. I like doing tarot sometimes. Not because I really…
I added a page for my ffxiv WoL, Keimrael , to my directory. I really wanna slowly work on adding even more characters to it, too. I kind of fell off the webdev wagon for a while as I was focusing on other things, and it's been nice to get back to it. I've also been working on making a less formal art gallery page that's filterable, but it's not ready to be fully public quite yet... In fandom…
I forgot how nice it feels to add new stuff to my website!! I joined a new webring and added some more links to my resources page . I linked the Drawfee youtube channel (since I watch their videos all the time and they have kept me sane lately), a convenient and free 3D pose ref tool, pretty buttons for some of the resources I already had listed, and a couple other things as well. Check the page,…
update for patreon 'cause i've been hella burnt out and dealing with lots of personal life stuff. sticker design, november patreon comm, stream plans, and an illustration wip (oh my)
hello i've started playing pikmin and i'm a little bit obsessed? please meet pizza, the pikmin i got from a local pizza place and named pizza who several weeks later went on a little trip and came home with a pizza on their head. i love this game. my brain has needed a whole lot of time to process lately and walks are GREAT for that. thank u pikmin for getting me to go outside more, i'm a little…
I posted links to my old sketchbooks on ko-fi and itch, and attached a copy of my 2022 sketchbook for patreon members. I also linked the VOD to my stream from last week in this patreon post , which you can watch on youtube . It's not very exciting, but if you've ever wanted to watch me draw, now you can. I think next time I'll turn the music up a little. I'm planning to stream more on weekends,…
some stickers I want to make and possible future convention plans
some lewd art i'm planning to keep exclusive to patreon, at least for a while
I've got two posts that i forgot to update here (oops!) a stolas illustration that i only put on patreon for now, and a compilation of my Queer Masc Stolas Week art for anyone who missed them on bsky.
whoof i've been real tired. Physically, but like. Existentially. Among other ways. One of the fun things about chronic illness and chronic fatigue is you learn of entirely new, fun ways to be tired that you previously weren't even aware existed!! Anyway. If you've been on the internet at all recently you've been aware of the widespread crackdown on censorship, from adult content being removed from…
i added my merblitz to the downloads collection, paid supporters can look at the layered clip file or color it in, and I put my gummy charms up in my ko-fi shop and will be making a public post soon.
the sleepy stolitz charms have landed!!!!
previews for some upcoming theme weeks
yet another new page has been added to my website! I made a little fandom history timeline on my strawpage and wanted to recreate it, so I have that now . I may add more to it over time, especially once I find more photos of old convention merch I've made, but the basics are up and I'm happy with it! I love having little sections that give you an idea of the person behind the website, especially…
some downloadables from the oofuri sketchzine i put together in 2020
Before I get to website changes, I found this really nice guide to making a basic website ! It has lots of good tools and info, and I added the link to my resources page. if you want a guide on making a website, especially after all the payment processor bullshit, check it out✨ i also finally found a light/dark toggle i could figure out how to add, so I have that on my site now! I have dark mode…
okay that buttons page is on my sitemap now, and it has resources and extra links, even though I still haven't made one for myself, haha. I'll get on that! As soon as I meet a couple deadlines. I can't stop fiddling with my site and adding things. I changed my guestbook, because it annoyed me that I couldn't style the one I was using before, and I'm much happier now. I have never in my life been…
I'm not sure how many people know of or have ever done any shipping olympics before, but I've participated in a lot of them and I put together a very long page to show off all of the stuff I made for them over the years. It was all just scattered across various dreamwidth communities and buried in pages and pages of comments. I think I did nine of them? It was a lot. Thankfully I kept links to…
I'm back again. I usually don't have this many things to post about but I am very busy playing dodgeball with the stuff I am supposed to be doing. And also going to figure drawing. I couldn't help that it was scheduled for when I'm supposed to be doing other things, it's not my fault. You don't pass up free figure drawing sessions when they present themselves, especially when they're only once a…
I'm gonna forget to mention it if I don't make a post, so I'm doing that. I now have a drawbox on my site! I love it. Go doodle something, if that sounds like it would be fun. I also added more to my OC directory homepage and did two artfight attacks today!! I am slowly catching up. I want to see if I can figure out how to make light and dark modes at some point, too. I watched KPop Demon Hunters!…
First off: I added yet another page to my website, haha. This one is an OC Directory formatted like a newspaper. It's mostly silly right now, pretty full of my sense of humor and not a lot of substance, but I'm planning to add subpages with actual bios for my characters over time, to replace my old weebly directory. In less fun news, I've been thinking about a lot of things, but especially…
I've been extremely slow with artfight progress because I've been tired and haven't had much motivation, but sometimes it be like that. I've gotten a couple really lovely attacks that I'm excited to get some revenge for when my energy picks back up, though! I finished uploading my backlog of fics to my archive , so now it's all caught up through the end of 2024. I'm gonna try to make some progress…
I've been having fun so far with artfight ! It was a slower start than usual for me, but I finally managed to squeeze a few attacks in. I've decided to mostly go through my bookmarks this year, and so far I'm liking that decision. Go me. I also realized I could download ao3 fics as html pages, and that made it super easy to start crossposting my fanfics on my own website. So I now have a fanfic…
I've been designing some potential merch for the future, you can see some early wips on my patreon
I spent a long time feeling like I was passively absorbing information, and I always thought I was kind of empty-headed. I would see others having complex, interesting responses to books and shows and studies and things where I rarely did. I always enjoyed English class and analyzing literature and media, but I didn’t feel like I had all that much of interest that I could actually contribute to…
I finally added a link to a sitemap in the footer on my portfolio, another task I've been meaning to finish for a while. I keep adding more pages to my site that are hard to find, haha! Now it's much easier. some pages are tricky to find on purpose, though, like the nsfw art section, which is mostly just a backup in case my patreon gets banned or bsky goes down or something. but I don't want that…
Okay, all my old notepin journal entries are now crossposted! So I deleted that. I'm much happier having my thoughts somewhere I have control, and the ability to make a backup. I still haven't decided exactly how I want to use this blog, but I'm starting to figure it out, I think. I'm going to add patreon posts to the RSS feed, when I remember! Those won't show up in the archives because they…
links to folders with stolitz art i've done and resized for use as desktop wallpapers! the patreon post is public for anyone to see and access.
y'know what. remakes would be okay if they were done with a specific goal in mind. If you take an existing story, but you add a twist — you change a character, you make it queer, you flip the script, you add a plot twist, you change the setting, etc — and then you do some research and look at how that would change the story, and make adjustments accordingly, you could have a really interesting…
it's so annoying that cleaning the space in which i live also helps improve brain chemistry. i'm absolutely furious about it (originally posted to notepin on 21 fun 2025)
I saw a post about fandom that used chess an a metaphor. The gist is: sometimes fandom feels like discovering you like chess, wanting to play it with people, deciding to attend a chess club, and arriving to realize everyone there is playing a game where they smack each other in the face with fish instead of playing chess. They still call it chess, and seem surprised when you want to play a…
hehe... happy 50 works on ao3 to me. 22 of them are from my newest fandom, from the past year and a quarter (it's now June 2025), despite creating the account in 2011. 210k of my total 350k wordcount from that time, too. wild. (originally posted to notepin on 18 jun 2025)