On a quest to live more intentionally
When I turned 18, I became obsessed with facing my fears. If I was scared of something, and I knew I shouldn t be, I did everything in my power to make it happen. I left home. I traveled the world. I jumped the tallest commercial bungee in the world in Macau. I killed a thousand [ ] The post Fears appeared first on Ka Kei Ho .
Late in 2025 I thought photography would be my visual creative outlet. It seemed like the obvious choice. Today I dread it. I m going to listen to that dread—lean into it. I m pausing photography because I didn t enjoy it. Part of this exercise is exploring what I really like, and what I ve really enjoyed is [ ] The post I don t want to take photos every day appeared first on Ka Kei Ho .
I ve been playing with Zo computer and new AI models lately and I haven t felt this way about computers since I was a kid. I started thinking about it, and I went down memory lane. As a kid, I was unburdened by what I didn t know and the silliness of adulthood. Social titles, work titles, [ ] The post Polymaths appeared first on Ka Kei Ho .
I went to a kid s birthday party. The dads played soccer with the kids. I played like it mattered. I didn t think about it. I just played. Full sprint. Every ball, so long as it was a dad in front of me. Afterwards I noticed: that was a kid s party, and I m going all in. [ ] The post Living with intensity appeared first on Ka Kei Ho .
I woke up in a good mood. An hour until tennis. It s unusual for us to play on Saturdays, but it s early January and many are still on holidays. My neighbors and I start warming up. Gabriel, usually cheerful and fun to be around, was quiet. Weirdly uncoordinated. Not himself. We start playing. I m serving. [ ] The post Existential anguish appeared first on Ka Kei Ho .
I was twenty, alone in a new country, trying to figure out how to build a life. I was afraid of running out of money, afraid of failing at everything I had imagined for myself, afraid of becoming someone I wouldn’t respect. If I couldn t think for myself, I couldn t make it. First principles thinking [ ] The post Making space appeared first on Ka Kei Ho .
I bought my oldest kid his first watch today. He loves when we ask what time it is. He can read the hands, and that alone thrills him. Thrills us too. My grandmother bought me my first watch and taught me how to read it. It felt like a special ability, and it was. It [ ] The post Time appeared first on Ka Kei Ho .
With age, the body aches. My ankles aren t what they used to be, they re fragile now. That s why I stopped playing soccer, even though I ve done it since I was a little kid. Today I played again. Waiting for the ball. Getting the ball. Fighting for the ball. Running for the ball. Shooting the ball. [ ] The post Ankles appeared first on Ka Kei Ho .
Writing requires two directions of attention. I look inward to find the words, the ideas, the reasons. I look outward—at the screen, at the page (though that happens less often)—to judge what I ve written and rethink it. That s why writing is hard. You have to admit that your thoughts are rarely clear, then do the [ ] The post Writing avoidance appeared first on Ka Kei Ho .
By January 1st, 2027, this blog will have 365 new photos and 52 new posts. I want to live more intentionally. Enough to find something worth photographing each day. I want to reflect more deeply. Enough to write something meaningful each week. Making it public and discoverable is simply my excuse to maintain quality, and [ ] The post One photo daily. One post weekly. appeared first on Ka Kei Ho .