hello, you can call me june this blog will mainly contain my thoughts, my hobbies or just mundane moments in daily life. if you want to talk about any...
"the plants haven't been watered yet" my mom says to me as i enter the dining room. i just came back from sitting outside on my laptop studying a photographers website and his works. scrolling through his work projects with different actors and brands. i choose images that i like from that project and write the technical stuff and what i personally like about the image. it keeps me busy since it's…
sliced tomato + salted egg + fried eggplant with plain white rice i could eat a whole pot of rice with only that trio canned pineapple once in awhile... maybe once a month cherries i've always liked cherries.. also learned the darker the cherry the sweeter the fruit. same goes with strawberries, the darker the red, the sweeter it is. the lighter the red the sour or flavorless it is. also recently…
snipped some parts of my movie review of the movie The Florida Project (2017) by Sean Baker. !! spoilers ahead context: the movie follows a 6-year-old girl named moonee and her daily life in a cheap motel near disneyland with her best friends and young single mom halley. [--] halley and moonee walk back to their place. the DCF (Department of Children and Families) and the cops were there. halley…
i've signed up for the 30-day free trial for BFI. i still find it absurd how you subscribe to a streaming platform yet you have to pay for premium plus plus plus to access more films or music... anywho. i will be watching a lot of films and make most out of this free trial. since i'm basically done with uni i have time to get back to my hobbies. reading books and watching films. tried to get back…
forgot i bought this kit ages ago are any of my insecurities hurting anyone else by accident? i keep everyone at a distance - physically or mentally, which means they struggle to create a closer and deeper bond with me and it hurts them. (i'm working on this, and have talked about this with my counsellor. as much as i feel safer and more secure by keeping everyone in the shore whilst i stay on my…
everyone and everything annoys me. im so sensitive. yet im numb. i feel crazy going through these moods. i can feel something, for a moment. for instance, happiness.. well is it even happiness if i feel empty and hallow? i was playing a game awhile ago and i was down. my character got shot so i needed rescuing. yet none of my teammates came to rescue me. immediately i felt offended and in shock…
it's been 2 months since my last blog post. well, even before that i haven't been consistent. i cannot match the pace i started with. not that it matters. i write when i feel like writing and post when i feel like sharing it, even to the void. hm... my right wrist aches... i will continue this another time... started: 28-05-2026 continued: 31-05-2026 my right hand hurts for another reason. well 3…
i'm about to write my essay when i saw the sun spilling through the living room floor. sun is scarce so i want to feel it and be in it for as long as i can. the track 'being loved isn't the same as being understood' by vines started playing through the speakers. i grabbed a pillow to sit on the floor, grabbed my laptop, notebook, and a pen. i was skimming through my lecture notes, already confused…
i'm no different than the normal joe. i just happen to know, learn, and understand about the brain and the mind and how it works in tandem with society. i'm no different really. for example, i like interacting with people. although later on when i'm alone or no longer at the function i would look back and, mostly i do not really think about the other person but, i think more about myself. how i…
i’m all up in my head againnnn… it’s crazy.. i will never escape this won’t i? i just have to keep myself busy. maybe that’s why they say “depression hates a moving target” or something. it’s what therapists say… because when you’re busy, you don’t have time to think about things… silly things such as wallowing in your own thoughts and being consumed by it. to have a to-do list or routine or goals…