Apathy About Knife Cutting

i know well the kinds of information i do and don’t want in my head

i am in here

do you think i’ve changed

hold on, there’s a thermometer in my mouth

i’m having a hard time

*cheering*

the minute is up, we’re starting another minute

can you feel this lump in my hip? in my throat?

i’m tired

i want to feel different

*apologizing*

that was the most heroic thing i’ve ever seen

stand on the pedals of your bike

find a corner

greet your pain alone

pass without disturbance

bite the plastic

bite your pill in half

white knuckle your way—————————

sniff out the rot

hug goodnight

locate the life inside you

play 100 great songs all in a row

grieve your father

dig for evidence a grave

bleed (bright) (red) (everywhere)

hold the rock in your mouth

swallow it all