MeThree: There is a Game Going On

This note I will write raw. And post before I regret writing it. So please bear with any mistakes or jumbledness that may show. I need to call out a game of harassment that I’m subjected to since many years now. And knowing that there are very powerful people behind the game, makes me scared to write. Also the wide web of people participating in it. But not telling about it is no longer an option since the Game is ruining basically all parts of my life. Having ignored it, moved countries time and again, changed habits, ,tried to secure my computer, going off social media etc etc, and nothing worked, only it’s gotten exponentially worse over the years, I’m now cornered into writing this post.

Every day, the moment I step out of my house or open my computer, I’m encountering the Game. It’s taken me years to figure out, that the basic tenet is simple: I’m being used as an aphrodisiac for the many, in that anything I write, say or do, will be copied by someone else, repeated back to me in a skewed form adding in a certain coded language that the participants in this Game somehow consider sexually enticing/releasing. It’s as ugly as it sounds. Which of course is why, I keep wondering why people participate in the Game? But that’s not for me to speculate in now. Now, I just want to tell what’s going on.

In a rather particular pattern, all communications around me add up to spinning the same kind of story - using one or more copied ‘versions’ of me to process the story. The participants - that include at this point in time, most people, I encounter - seem to have no qualms at all for neither what they’re putting me through (How do you think it is to continuously experience that what you say in one place, gets repeated back to you in skewed forms elsewhere? That no one is honest or even just sincere when speaking to you because they get more out of using you as an object in their spinning participation in the Game?), nor for how twisted they themselves become in their attempt to hit the right ‘real life meme’ in this Game, using even their own kids as pawns, by dressing them in the Game colour and pattern codes.

Nor does anyone seem to worry about what this Game - that also permeates the media, including the very liberal media - does to the general sense of reality by being a fake-news Game, where the presentation of news, even horrific news is very often twisted into fitting into this Game! Or even when events, also very violently ones, are created so as to fit into the Game.

So let me be more specific: The mirroring of some form of me (also often termed the white powder, Snow White, snow etc, which I guess must be because I refuse to become part of the Game), can look like this:

1. example of the very tiny everyday scale of the Game:

I’m going to the stable where I keep my horse, having what I for a few minutes think is normal cordial conversation amongst horse people, till I realise that the other person is beginning to tell me about her horse’s behaviour as if exactly the same I had told someone else a few days before about mine. Could be a coincidence if it happened once in a while, but not on a daily basis - and not when I can hear my own specific use of words repeated back to me. And generally, the first person in the sequence will be dressed in Green (or particularly dress their children in green); the second person will be dressed in something that reflects how I dress, often combined with grey to indicate the mixture of white and black (I’ll later explain more about these colour codes). Then, if I don’t enter or withdraw from the conversation with person two - which I think is natural, as why talk to a person who make believe in a Game of echo of oneself?! - a checkered pattern will for sure be presented to me by a third person. The squares basically carrying the same meaning of the white: my refusal to take part in the Game.

and of course I know: it’s all being streamed or recorded.

2. Example of the middle level of this Game

Say, I meet some man I like - and being single and dating, this happens from time to time. I can rest assured that any chance I have to meet this man, alone and under circumstances conducive to romance (and/or sex), will be torpedoed by an avalanche of disturbances in all imaginable shape and forms, most often coming from other women. Except, which today is unfortunately the rule rather than the exception, if the man in question is already a participant in the Game, and thus himself playing into it. That means, that unless I take the required number of metered out steps in the right order, - that means in the coded pattern of the Game (that I presume must be streamed to the right recipients - the Man takes a step back, and throws in another woman to the mix (here we have come to the colour Red), which according to the Game I apparently should accept, but which for me naturally becomes the end of that particular road …

3. Example of the larger scale of the Game

Say, I’ve made some specific points about a subject in a book or a debate, that some people might consider interesting, but perhaps also controversial or new. I can be absolutely sure that these same points will be incorporated into an article by a journalist, or a speech by a politician, - and not like normally poaching ideas from others where it’s the ideas that matter - But setting it up so very clearly with images that fit the pattern of the Game, so that it’s evident that the substance itself doesn’t actually matter much, what really matters is the sexual arousing created by having copied thoughts of mine and presenting them in the form of the Game. And importantly: done so that they’re sure that I’ll come across it. Because it’s apparently only when the ‘participants’ know that I’m confronted with this destructive mirroring, that the Game works. So it’s a kind of intellectual sadism at play. And this is no matter, whether the issue is as deadly as the Israeli bombing of Gaza, and the war in Ukraine, or something more philosophical or prosaic such as human identity, literature, or the world of finance.

Another even more serious part of the Game, is that whenever I seem to bow out of those steps the Game assigns to me (that still remains for me to fully decipher), people get killed. Literally. And I know it has to do with the game, because of how it gets presented in the news. But this I’ll revert to with examples next time. As for this, I think the best way to show it, is to describe day by day what is happening, then you can judge for yourself.

MeThree

No, I’m not paranoid at all. At some point years back, I thought I might be, since what I observed in this ‘Game’ was so insanely stupid, I simply couldn’t imagine any thinking grown-up person wanting to participate - not least considering it sexually interesting.

But having studied and written down what I objectively observed over long periods of time, I realised that indeed: That’s exactly how the Game is. With this little added twist, that it’s actually the real or perceived harming of me, that is sexually enticing. The seemingly uncoverable crime of using and abusing an independent woman and any talent she might have or work she does, until there’s nothing left of her. It’s Pelicot by daylight, and without touching, but the mechanism is the same: render a woman defenceless, then abuse her and share the abuse on the internet. Cause that’s how people get off sexually today? Isn’t it? Only the odd thing is that the largest part of the people abusing, doing the copying and spinning, are other women.

That’s why I call it MeThree . This is a form of abuse that has an intermediary - and this intermediary is, to my horror, most often a woman! Apparently the number of people who can’t have sex anymore unless they engage in this Game, is humongous - man or woman. And that in itself, is pretty disturbing to contemplate. But it’s not my burden to carry! As one would have thought evident even in Trump times: that no person is responsible for the sexuality of another person - unless they themselves wish to be! Which I certainly do NOT.

So that’s why I tell. And I start in general terms; knowing that to the uninitiated what I describe may sound very odd (even if I believe quite a few readers, may know exactly what I’m talking about, and others may have an inkling …). Yet, this Game, this Spiders’ Web is so wide spread, that I prefer to go slowly, adding in names and specifics only gradually, as and when necessary (if the Game doesn’t stop by being exposed) and once I have drawn up the full pattern of the MeThree GAME.