that feeling

when you sit down
and breathe
and let yourself relax
why is it tingly?
the way release races down your skin
all the way to your toes until you need to stretch them out

do you know that feeling?
the energy that runs down your spine
vibrates against your skin

it wants to pool
like... finally

Finally
Finally I can let go
Finally I am done
Finally.

but it spills

it hums against me in the same way that excitement does
it snaps free from my shoulders
it collects in my belly and swells like I am going over a bump in the road too quickly

everything lets go, but braces at the same time
like...
what’s next?
what are we preparing for?
can this be all there is?

is something coming?
something that I just can’t see
something around the corner
whispering as it beckons to me

but finally I’ve sat down
finally I am still
finally no one needs me

silence
stillness
A look into myself
I see only what is here

shivers
she anticipates
she asks... for what?

Girl, I just sat down.