A blog for no one.
A stream of consciousness post. Need to release, may delete later but probably will forget to. Also, trigger warning: I'm talking about death here. The first thing you do after seeing your father take his last breath is question it. You're bickering with your brother to calm his attitude and screaming for your mom to get into the damn room. You sit opposite your brother, both of you with fingers…
Forgive me bears, I'm still learning this newfound way of blogging and the community. I've discovered Blaugust but couldn't wrap my head around how to join because of all the things I'm juggling around in my head and assumed AuguStory was another challenge that seemed a bit simpler, more at the level of how my brain is currently working. I may have missed the point! But, I shared prompts with…
Ambivalence is caring in two directions at once — holding two conflicting feelings simultaneously, neither one canceling the other out. You love this person. You are also exhausted by them. You want to be here. You also want to be anywhere else. You are grateful for the time you still have. You are also bracing for what comes next. You chose this. You also didn’t choose this, not really, not with…
The real story behind FOR NO ONE is in the name. Among all the crap I share on here, I have yet to tell you that I'm a huge fan of The Beatles. I couldn't tell you my favorite song because I have too many... but "For No One" always strikes a silent yet resonating pang within me. I don't know how else to explain it. The actual lyrics mean nothing to me really. They don't draw any particular…
I've already written my FOR NO ONE origin story but I'd also love to revisit my blogging journey via AuguStory : The idea is simple. Write the story of your blog. How you got into it, where it's taken you, why you're still at it. No template, no fixed questions. Just your story, told however you want to tell it. Not sure where to start? Here are a few things you could touch on. Pick and choose, or…
What's going on Not much has happened this week... I think? I can't really remember. I've been mostly going through the motions of dad's fourth week in hospice and it's tiring — all the same things just tiny changes that I'm not used to yet like medicine changes, times I give the medicines, figuring out the best time for food. My watch has complimented me for somewhat consistent sleep but I still…
Cancer and Capricorn: Life and Structure Cancer and Capricorn describe the relationship between what is alive and what allows life to continue through time. Cancer is ruled by the Moon. It is connected to nourishment, bodily existence, memory, kinship, motherhood, vulnerability, and the need to belong. Cancer recognizes that life begins in dependence. No one survives without being held, fed,…
Verity Voron is on an Inner Healing Journey and I am as well. I think the bravest thing you can do for yourself is seek change, to confront your demons head on and form a plan against them so I applaud her. The varieties of trauma and depression are vast — no one's journey will every be the same, maybe slightly similar in teeny ways that allow us to find moments of resonance, to feel less alone in…
Documentary: 10 Years with Hayao Miyazaki
Poor boundaries are almost always a reflection of low self-esteem (and vice versa), and something needs to be done to address the one for the other to improve. Let’s start with self-esteem. To build self-esteem, you need to first understand that it’s simply the by-product of being a competent, well-adjusted human being. Self-esteem is not something that you pursue for its own sake. Doing that…