An aspiring artist in search of his medium
Last night V. came for her usual heatwave sleepover. We chatted at night as I was giving instructions to Claude for a feature release we're demo-ing today. It was evident neither her nor myself was enjoying the partial attention, much like someone who is chatting via whatsapp…
Yesterday I left work early and joined V. and Plutarco to see the total eclipse that happened yesterday in Spain. Initially it was only going to be the three of us but Plutarco received a last minute invitation to a house which had supposedly good views. Plutarco sent the owner…
Yesterday I went to the doctor in the morning to renovate my ED prescription and to inquire if it was possible to contest the ENTs assessment that I was not deaf enough to be prescribed a hearing device. When I arrived to the clinic I was assigned a different doctor, and a man…
Reading myself has been cathartic in that I like the honesty with which I spoke to myself at the time. It was a crisis at multiple levels that is still in process, but I see struggles I used to have and I think "oh that's no longer an issue!" some are perennial like the avoidant…
During August my studio cancelled evening practice, so I went to the park to practice my handstand. Still working on my line, in handstand your wrists ought to be lined up with your knees pelvis and shoulders, head can stick out to look at the floor, but that is just to assist…
I find wonderful passages among a significant amount of debris in the journals I wrote 12 years ago. The debris are the todo-lists, the notes that I added at later dates, the random shit that comes up. I opened one of the notebooks at a random page to illustrate the fact: Today…
This morning I woke up 3:45 fully alert. I had gone to bed early, so I didn't go back to bed. I prepared myself coffee and did all the chores I procrastinated during the weekend. When I was done, it was 5:30 and my yoga class started at 7:00. A nap was too dangerous to I sat…
Since Claude refuses to translate these Lyrics, I will translate them by hand. I will not change the lyrics as to illustrate how fitting it is for your situation: I don't want to get married (no me quiero casar Bad Bunny 2023) Raise your hand them who is making money Let the new…
In a couple of years you will come back to this. I would like to ask you: Are you happy? no, happiness is not part of the deal and it's still worth it. is this process ridiculous? yes, it is ridiculous in a degree where it is correct to be ridiculous at the right amount at the…
V. prepared dinner last night. It was fish and it was laborious. I assisted with the drinks and the salad. We had a nice chat though I would blank out at time from having smoked weed. She's just seen me high a handful of times and her reaction is utterly normal, she speaks to me…
I just came back from my first black lotus practice and I feel compelled to comment on it. It's difficult to assess given that it was an introductory class (first series at gray difficulty), the instructor said. She had a phenomenally built body without tattoos and a serious…
I just came out of the smoke club and I saw a lady with the most beautiful waistline I remember. I could not help but follow her super sexy gait a few meters behind her, then I thought to myself "more than one block is creepy" so I took a right turn, and ended up behind another…
I'm trying to import all the content I've created into this vibecoded monster and this requires human review. In the process I'm finding a lot of interesting stuff. I couple of dreams that amused/impressed me: - A white dog bites my ass - A dream about writing again - Asian…
I imported all my reddit comments and posts to reddit.exploration.work and laughed very had at this old rage comic. I loved the rage comic format and according to upboats I was good at it. I have an updated sitemap at memela.com and felt awesome taking control of my content. I…
On Friday night I spoke with V. about the words she had said in the morning and we came to an amicable understanding. In the morning we went together to a yoga class at the studio where I had wondered if the owner was being flirtatious. It's difficult to tell what exactly…
This morning V. and myself came out of our respective bedrooms in the morning, after having had an amicable dinner together that lasted until late hours. I drank enough wine to feel a slight hangover in the morning. I had checked my email earlier, and I was selected in the…
Avicenna often used psychological methods to treat his patients. One such example is when a Persian prince had melancholia, suffering from the delusion that he was a cow. He would moo and cry out, "Kill me so that a good stew may be made of my flesh," and would never eat…
On the right half of my screen I'm writing this, on the left Claude is working. I've heard a lot of complaints from friends and co-workers feeling exhausted after a day prompting sandpeople. It's taxing to context switch so much I think. Many times I go inside the messages to…
This morning I woke up at 5am without having slept enough, because of the heat. I shrugged it off and got prepared for a 7am yoga class with one of my favorite teachers, but when I was all jazzed up and ready to leave, I attempting reserving the class on an app and it turns out…
Yesterday I went to see a very small apartment that was up for rent, near work. It's the price that I paid for the room in the shared apartment where I stayed last year. It's tiny but well organized. The space is basically a double storied room of 1.5 height, so that the bed…
@hope I'm still not doing anything direct with knees. It just isn't smart for me. Sucks, but that's the deal. Find myself on cables more, being even more careful with my joints all over the place, and doing more for my core. Based! Core work and cables will get you superpowers…
Yesterday I went to yoga, to the pool, then went back home for lunch, to the pool again, and then went to visit my friend Govi and her husband. Govi is a gregarious person whom I like a lot, as well as her husband, but their group of friends is almost unbearable to me. Govi…
I lived in the sewers with a bunch of other people who only minded their own business, just like me. We were all searching for the light, and the way out was not difficult or complicated, but we got entangled in the pursuit of rats as meals, fighting each other for them, and…
I’m at the park and a wasp is nibbling on the chicken wing I was munching on earlier. The warm tinge is from the sky which is sandy today, creating a Mexican movie kind of coloring. Let’s see if a photo will capture it. not really. I’m not sure if the perceivable tinge is color…
Yesterday the real estate agent that works with my landlord asked if I was available to show the apartment for someone who is replacing me as a tenant in September. I'm looking forward to move, the apartment is not very comfortable for me and it's useful to notice what I value…
11 min. Cleaned transcript. Uncertain passages marked [?]. --- I must learn how to narrate. Well, I'm doing stuff so that I can verbalize my experience. And, uh, just gain more confidence with my enunciation. Listening to how my voice changes as I change positions. Right now I'm…
Yesterday V. came for a sleepover due to the extreme heat. She doesn't have AC installed at home yet, and even though she took precautions months ago, AC installers are in high demand and they could only install it after the summer. She slept in the spare bedroom at my new place…
20:30 V. is coming in two hours to stay over to refuge from the hot winds from the Sahara. There's not much sand blowing this time, but the air is hot. Sometimes it feels like you're being blown by a huge hair dryer. I chatting with Claude in the background, and even though my…
Current status: 80% complete (beware of Pareto's principle). Current satisfaction: 60% (I can barely tolerate it now). Current qualms: sloppy and unpolished. It's ugly. Ugly makes Mark unhappy. Yesterday, as I was reorganizing my constellation of websites, I questioned if I…
I'm dozing off at work. The last few days I've slept very little, because of the heat and the uncomfortable bed at my new home. It never ceases to surprise me how quickly we become accustomed to nice things, after a year with a good mattress (at my former place) I've lost the…
Today I had my first quarter "performance" review. we set my goals and aligned on company values. I had to self rate myself against those values, and I made a truthful effort at rating myself with justice, so I put myself lacking in some areas and strong in others. I won't go…
Yesterday I attended Valleca's batalla naval as I did last year. I didn't have as much fun, in part because I had to leave early, but I'm surely looking forward to this event every year, I love it. The reason I had to leave early was because I was invited to watch the match at a…
Let's have a tweet sized conversation. There's a nice church outside my house in Madrid, it's called "Parroquia de St. Gines", what can you tell me about this building? San Ginés is one of Madrid's oldest parishes — medieval origins, rebuilt in the 1600s. It houses an El Greco,…
This morning I asked Claude: why are the videos I'm uploading look like crap? It responded: it's iOS fault, when you upload a video through the camera app directly it will upload crap, and even if you use the video picker for previously recorded videos it will degrade the…
One last thing to this context window: sir, we need to update the readme.md with something which would look as if I wrote it myself. The reasoning behind this project is to be able to communicate publicly in people who are mutually interested in doing so, like h0p3. You'll see…
I still can’t get over the fact that now I can upload text, photos and videos from my phone. now all I need to remember is to capture moments as they happen, instead of waiting to come back home in order to do it (I still miss the keyboard, I feel it takes like 20 IQ points off…
A wide-ranging Q&A on hominin evolution, from the 800kya bottleneck through self-domestication, violence in the fossil record, and prehistoric social organization. --- The 800kya Human Population Bottleneck What species was it? Likely the last common ancestor of modern humans,…
This weekend I spent most of the time "working" on my personal websites, and I'm very happy with the direction it's headed. I write "working" in quotes because it never felt like it, Fable was like having a personal dev/designer to which I could give instructions and I went on…
the landlord said there was a view of the opera, the is but I must bob my head above the roof to see it. Greeted by the sunset today.
is it me or the quality is terrible?
this is a video test
Triggered from a prompt from h0p3 for self-controntation with sandpeople. I can't find it at this time, but this is the prompt: Here is most of what I have written in the last ten or so years. What do you think of it? What stands out the most? What wisdom can be derived from it?…
Some days ago my house in Puebla flooded again. My sister shared some pictures. They made me exceendingly sad, to see the house in its worst state in years. Since now I have the fortune of being able to quickly upload and comment photos, I will do just that: This is usual…
I wanted to take a selfie but I realized security is still very lax and I have brought Claude to the bed. I’m surviving the afternoon drinking cool peppermint tea with lime and sugar. Working with Fable has been amazing, to take advantage I upgraded to mas for a month, and I…
I didn't write during the week, in part becuase we went to a company offsite in Cantabria and I had very little personal time, but also because I don't like the set-up I have made for myself: creating a new .md and filling in the Frontmatter metadata is cumbersome. Here I'm…
On July 1st the lease of the apartment where I was staying expired. I was running out of time without finding anything adequate for a long term rental, so I took a place that was being rented for two months during the summer at a reduced price. This will buy me time to move…
u/CSTVT1: She lived a very tragic and hard life so she's seen as a symbol of strength and perseverance I think. I'm not a huge fan either but she's super popular in LATAM. I'd say she's more popular abroad than in Mexico View thread on r/todayilearned --- u/oby100: Have you been…
On Friday I caved in and bought some weed. I had barely slept in the previous days, and I needed it to get my sleep cycle in check. That's how I explained it to myself, as usual the first day was great followed by an inability to control myself and it bled into the rest of the…
From Puebla I brought back my notebooks from the year 2014, when I first started journaling. I will eventually backfill everything I've written since then, but the year 2014 will suffice until I go back to Mexico. I'll surely have to redact some things. Inside the cover pockets…
Last night I was going to write about my mom, but then I thought: why write about her, it's better to call her. She's been preparing the rooftop for waterproofing. I bought four 20l buckets for this task and some people will come to help do it. My mother is busy all the time,…