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I miss when I lived out in the country in the middle of nowhere. the amount of wildlife was something like a spiritual experience. all types of birds visiting the feeders, baby raccoons out the front door, deer that had twins each year, the solitary red fox that would only get brave in the fog. I could go on. I counted close to 80 turkey one morning looking out my kitchen window. it's spring here…
my partner doesn't like going to see movies in theaters. so when they said they wanted to go see Hoppers in the theater, I was pretty shocked and jumped on the chance. I can't recall the last time I was in a theater for a movie off the top of my head. but I digress. despite issues with Disney as a company, I really enjoyed this movie. I already thought it looked silly, but I didn't expect to enjoy…
Maybe the issue is that I don't really know what I mean when I say that I want validation. One definition is “the action of making or declaring something legally or officially acceptable.” There’s merit in that definition, even if it’s not exact. There’s an element to being a creative person where you are learning, practicing, honing. But there’s really no point where anyone will come to you and…
As a note, I am still relatively new to the bear space. If I do something that is against the general code of conduct for the blogging space, please feel free to let me know. I am not trying to come across as ignorant or flippant to the rules and decorum of the space. I can be reached at scribbledmargins [at] proton [dot] me, otherwise I have added a link in my about page. Thank you. Also, this…
I'm trying to reconcile with some aspects of creating. Similar to what I was saying before, about the pull of social media and sharing your art and wanting it to be seen. I started a blog on a site that is extremely barebones and is designed to be a corner of the "slow internet" or the "indie web." Anyway, despite this, despite me just throwing words on the page and posting it, I still felt the…
I am not a nihilist. I don't plan to become one. but sometimes I can't help but ask myself what the point of it all is. that's not supposed to sound like some musing before I swan dive off a bridge. rather it's the feeling of being ground down by the constant monotony and cyclical nature of working for a living. that's overdramatic, but I know I can't be the only one who feels that way. never…
life is strange or at least the version of it that's sold to us is strange all of life is pretty strange though I'm always torn between being authentic and myself and letting myself be vulnerable, or just hiding behind an artist alias or a screen name to protect my privacy. Inevitably I start to worry about "branding" and "marketability" because it's so ingrained in me that anything you do as a…
hello internet void, my name is nik and I currently occupy a space on planet earth between the states of Minnesota and Wisconsin. I am geographically locked into this limbo due to family and responsibility. This isn't a bad thing, but it offers a narrow view of the world at times. I am currently in my early 30s and I am at this present moment attending college. I am lucky enough to have an…