This is not a safe space. This is not a wellness blog. This is not where you come to feel better. This is where you come when the silence starts to scre...
You know what I love? I love the smell of earth after a rain shower. I love the smell of coffee in the morning — not the idea of it, the actual smell, before the first sip, when it still holds all its promise. I love the feeling of a body made sore by a good yoga class, the specific satisfaction of muscles that worked. I love the smell of sweat on a dance floor. I love the energy that lives in me…
I have always been proud of having friends from around the world. People who, more or less, share the same values as me — or at least land somewhere in the middle. Not radical, not racist, not dangerous. Over the years I have opened my home, my country, my personal space, and whoever counted as family at the time, to people of different nationalities and backgrounds. And those who stayed within my…
After almost a year of living in Dubai, I came back to France for a vacation. And what a pleasure it is — France on vacation. No taxes to navigate, no administrative battles to fight, most locals conveniently away so the particular brand of everyday racism is at a seasonal low. Just pure pleasure and bliss, punctuated by a homeless person on every corner and a quiet, persistent anxiety about your…
I am not a people person. They don't warm up to me fast enough, and honestly — I don't particularly like them either. I don't feel I belong to their species. They exhaust me in ways I can't always explain. My relationship with humans is, in a nutshell, complicated. That said, I have a few. A small, rotating few who connect to me genuinely — and that circle shifts every few years depending on where…
In October 2023 I was still adapting to life in France — the language, the culture, the rhythms of a completely different world. I was yearning to belong, to build a community, to make friends, to find my place inside a new and unfamiliar family. It was exciting. I wanted it genuinely. I have always believed there is something remarkable about changing your life completely — starting from scratch…
Life has been happening for so long that we forgot how long it's actually been going. Earth has survived extinctions, asteroids, fires, climate shifts, animal wars, human wars, earthquakes, volcanic eruptions — disasters we know about and disasters we still haven't uncovered. It has survived religious upheavals, brutal conquests, prophets and devils. And when you step back and look at everything…
I always had an inferiority complex about being Lebanese. I didn't like that my soul chose this country and these people as my tribe. So I always wanted out. Coming from a minority sect — a foreigner inside my own supposed origins — I spent my whole life wanting to belong. I knew eventually that it wasn't possible, but I still wanted it. I wanted to belong to a certain majority, a certain…
I studied every political system humans ever created. I hated all of them. So I made my own. I have a political studies background. I've read the ideologies, the manifestos, the promises. Capitalism — brilliant on paper, a feeding frenzy in practice. Communism — noble in theory, a graveyard in execution. Socialism — lovely until it runs out of other people's money. Technocracy — finally, smart…
You know who is solely responsible for creating either a horrible or a better world? Mothers. And they — the ones who either never had real mothers or had broken ones — came for motherhood under the banners of feminism and equality. Which, let me tell you what that actually means in practice: paying double the taxes to a government that gives nothing back. It was sold as progress — infrastructure,…
We are the biggest participants in the genocide in Gaza. The whole world is. Every single one of us — complicit in building the new world order whether we signed up for it or not. We boycott. We shout. We post. We manifest. We fight back. And all of it — every single gesture — is a façade. A performance of freedom we never really had and will never have again. Not as long as we keep our money in…