I wanted to write.

I missed you too and I never stopped writing but maybe because I wanted to write about alot of things..

I wanted to write to tell about how I am never satisfied and how I go up and down in my faith, about how I am right there one minute and the next I am not. About how I am convicted one moment and the next it doesn’t seem like it ever happened. But we don’t walk by feelings right?😹

I really wanted to ask if I will ever be fully convinced or whether, because it is a faith journey, I am right to interpret that scripture to mean I have to walk blindly and trust that the One who made the universe is still there, hearing me, watching me, and guiding me safely in the way.

I wanted to write about disappointments, about the thoughts that fly around in my head. I also wanted to ask if I’m not the only one who goes through this. I wanted to ask if we all go through this phase.

I wanted to write about how much I think my eyes need to be opened, how much I need to believe solely in the One who made the universe, knowing fully well He’s guiding me in Him, even if He doesn’t show “workings,” that is, what my eyes can see.

I wanted to ask if we all see people alighting halfway from this bus we all swore to ride to the end, even people who encouraged us to take a seat, put our seatbelt on, and enjoy the ride. I wanted to ask if the Holy Spirit calmly reassured you too that we aren’t their Savior, but that He is very mindful of them.

I wanted to ask if you also see your folly in some situations and question if you have really grown. I wanted to ask if you you have also been told and if you know now that dissatisfaction you feel, rightly channeled, is to know more of God.

I wanted to ask if you also reminisce and if you have seen how far you have come, how far you have changed.

I wanted to ask if you also don’t want to go up and down in your thoughts, stuck in the same cycle, loophole over and over again. I wanted to ask if you also frantically look for your Jesus, asking where He went because He was so close the other time and now it’s like you lost Him in the crowds, you let their bubbling and the man selling and advertising enticing wares distract you. Do you also frantically look for Him with tears welling up in your eyes?

I wanted to ask if the impatient you have ever wondered when it will all end. Why is the road long?

It’s funny how you know you are in the right way one time, the next minute you seem to forget what you believed in.

But deep down, you know He’s got peace, a peace that flows like a river, peace that nothing in this world could ever replace. You know Him different from the noise. You know Jesus is purging you, separating you, and giving you an atmosphere away from the noise.

You know this. Hold on to it.

All this I wanted to write, but someone asked me to hug you and whisper in your ears to not be scared. It is possible! Rest assured, if you continue in His word daily, giving yourself to attendance, making sure to obey, there is enough strength each day to keep you going. Cheers to believing.

WELCOME TO DUNAMIS’ SUBSTACK.

I am lost for words to address my longggg absence. However, i am doing, great! How about you??

On songs, I have been listening to 🤭 we have Dance by Kim Walker-Smith and God with us by Don Moen

See you sooner or later .

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