It's Great | It Sucks

Right now? My life feels murky AF.

There are things I don’t know. Things I haven’t figured out.

AND...

I have hopes.
I have dreams.
And I have a crystal-clear vision for what I want my life to look like.

I am free from a marriage I wasn’t happy in.

AND...

That freedom was. not. free. This divorce left me in a financial hole that I am scrambling to dig my way out of.

I love being single.

I love my freedom. I love my space. I love making decisions without having to check in with anybody.

AND...

Sometimes, I wish I had somebody to put their arms around me and say,

“I got you. You don’t have to carry this one.”

Because listen...being independent is wonderful.

And sometimes I’m tired of being the ONLY one who has got me.

I am living in a beautiful house that I absolutely love.

AND...

I have no idea how much longer I’m going to be able to stay here.

See what I mean?

Both things are true.

My life is good AND it is hard right now.

But here’s what I’ve been thinking about:

What if I told you the exact same story, but I only told you this part?

I am FREE.

I got out of a marriage where I wasn’t happy, and I get to decide what my life looks like now.

I have hopes. I have dreams. And for the first time in a long time, I can see where I’m going.

I’m single. I have my freedom. My time is mine. My choices are mine.

And tonight?

I get to come home to a beautiful house that I love.

Same life.
Same circumstances.
Same woman.

Different story.

And that’s the part I’m learning.

Every good has some bad.

AND every bad has some good.

Maybe the question is:

“Which part of the story am I going to tell?”