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Rural doctor, mom, writes poems, dance, sing.

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Liar, liar

Liar, liar, pants on fire, nose is as long as a telephone wire. Trigger warning: sexism, child abuse, dating, US culture. Kinda not tame. The last guy I date, only we don t date, is a liar. It is a bit into Covid. He knows I ve had three pneumonias and he texts. Are you worried about [ ]

Penal dream

I have not forgotten youI forgive youAnd in forgiving, you are cast outForgiveness does not mean allowanceOf further abuseYou may not returnYou are the last, thoughWhich has nothing to do with it being youDon’t get the idea that it is endless loveThat I am carrying a torchNo, the torch is extinguishedFor all menI cannot imagine [ ]

Show me

I have been flying under the radarfor a long time I want to be visibleon screenmaybe I want to teachResidentsMedical studentsI want them to love rural medicineas I love it I am a pterodactylwanting to riseamong the AI satellitesand sayUse the telephone to reach other doctorsListen to your patientListen to what they don't sayListen to [ ]

Complicit men: Epstein’s accessories

Trigger warnings: human trafficking, sexual abuse, crimes against humanity, Epstein The men listed in the Epstein files are silent or are saying, Not me. I didn t do it. But men did do it. And YOU men were at the parties and saw the young women, teenagers, underage. You may have been offered a massage. Maybe [ ]

Eating sunlight

Beloved I don t think I can bear this It s a good plan To work five more years And retire in better financial shape House paid off But it hurts so My tattered bruised and battered heart Already patched so many times And to see so many people each day Hurting Why, Beloved? Why don t we [ ]

Scree dream

In September, I hike with the three friends in the Ragtag Daily Prompt photograph. I have not really backpacked into back country in years. The last time I carried the pack was in Italy with my daughter, a few years ago. She wanted to plan the trip as we went and stay in hostels. We [ ]

Balancing act

I am working at a site in the greater Seattle area, but I am not going to say where. Why? Two reasons. One is that the patient diversity is huge: the organization is organized to take care of low income, uninsured and immigrant patients. The second is that I am still trying to decide if [ ]

Perspective: beneath the clouds

Beloved why?I am glad for your loveand warmthand connectionand my cat sand my adult childrenfriendsfamilypatientsworkand why? Beloved A high Adverse Childhood Experience ScoreTwo alcoholic parentsOne sick with tuberculosis through pregnancyLetters from the hospital to her motherAfter birthNever mention meAs if I do not exist She told a story that she dreamedshe gave birth to kittensplayed with [ ]

Every day

Every dayI am thankful for clean waterwater to drinkwater to washI am blessedby clean water Every dayI am thankful for foodGood foodto cookto eatto shareI am blessedby good food Every dayI am thankful that I can standthat I can walkthat I can carry thingsup and down stairsI am blessedthat I can stand Every dayI am [ ]

Dissolution

I am sorting, Beloved. I dream that my sister has drownedin the ocean. A sailboat went down.There were others on board.Two friends ready me to dive and find her.I don t want to scuba dive, I am not trained.I don t know how to use the equipment.I am afraid I will drown too.I see her daughter, who [ ]