There is a card I pulled this morning from the Cozy Witch Tarot by Amanda Lovelace, and in it a woman is kneeling with her head down, three cups overturned beside her and the rug beneath her soaked all the way through, and you can feel the defeat moving through her body.
Her hands are flat on the floor in something like submission, and what she is releasing there is the control, or maybe I should say the dominance, that she had been holding over her own soul.
Above her the clouds are clearing and the stars are coming out and a reckoning is happening, because it turns out her soul was always more powerful than her conditioning.
During Mercury retrograde she lost herself, and she handed over her body and her mind and her soul to her conditions, and she locked her own essence away in a room with every window shut. The domineering ruler in her said it had to be done systematically, the old way, the way it has always been done, and that cast a spell over her mind and she forgot this was never her way.
So she dove straight in and launched, and she held the webinar, and she did all the things, while her soul sat in that locked room unable to break the spell from the inside. The only door left was her body, so that is the one it used, willing aches into her shoulders and sleepless nights into her weeks and a heaviness she could feel as the actual weight of that domineering force.
It was only on the evening Mercury went direct that she broke the glass and spilled the tea that had been ruling her. Both of them ended up on the floor together, the conscious self bent over and panting and confused and sad and defeated, and the inner soul self panting with relief because clarity was finally coming through, and the two of them merged right there on the wet rug with two cups still standing behind them, full of the divine elixir of truth and harmony.
This was me. (I’m sure you figured that out, lol.)
believing that LUSH Business Academy needed a launch, and a webinar, and all the things. I felt every ache of it in my body, and I did not listen to my season, or my compass, or the beautiful design of my own inner landscape.
I am sitting here this morning hearing the rain outside and the washing machine spinning at the same time, cleaning my clothes, and I realize I have been in the washing machine myself these last weeks, spinning and spiraling, and now it is time to wring it out.
Before all of this I was seated as a priestess, fully in myself, and the divine trust and the sacred work I placed in during that season carried its gifts forward into the retrograde as little breadcrumbs, reminding me what works and what does not.
I spent countless hours on this launch, and after the masterclass no one said yes.
One would think that was an epic fail.
I deepened my knowledge base and my wisdom so much during those weeks that how I feel about LUSH Business Academy and the caliber of support I can offer inside it is undeniable to me now.
I was invited to be part of a summit that has brought 65 new subscribers onto my list and that is still growing in a matter of just 7 days.
My pitch to speak at an event here in North Carolina in August was received warmly and I am now one of the presenters.
I received a unanimous yes to join the Board of Directors of an incredible organization here in Raleigh.
I built an onboarding system so that every new or re-signing client feels held along her journey.
I have been a guest on two podcasts and I reignited my own.
My mastermind Luminaries just had their virtual retreat and they are already planning for the in person one in October.
Oh and three LUSH Business Mastermind clients signed on for another twelve months.
I continue to receive words of affirmation, love notes, scattered across the internet from people I love
Substack Note shared by Raquel Corona from Truly Yours Salud
The spell that convinced me the way to be of service was to launch, and to spend countless hours building a training, was not the most aligned move for me.
➡️ Showing up in your inbox, telling you my stories, creating space so that energetically aligned people arrive on their own, walking into rooms of leadership and growth, that is what has been guiding my path the whole time, and I keep wondering how long I have known that and gone ahead with the other thing anyway.
I wonder that about a lot of us, honestly.
I wonder how many women are running a season that belongs to somebody else’s calendar and calling the exhaustion proof of devotion. You do not always get to know which one you are inside of while you are inside of it, and sometimes the body speaks before the mind is willing to, and sometimes it takes three cups going over and a soaked rug before the windows open again.
and it isn’t the end of the world, it is actually the beginning.
May you trust the breadcrumbs already in your hands.
xoxo,
*The card is from the Cozy Witch Tarot deck by Amanda Lovelace.
PS. LUSH Business Academy is open for you, my dear friend.
No posts
Comments
Nothing yet. Say the first thing.
Sign in to join the conversation.